Last Post For 2009.

As the day is coming to an end, so is the year. And I'm glad this will all soon be over. =) At least, that's what I'm putting my hopes on.

2009 wasn't really my year, so to say. And sad to add, I've sorta gotten the idea so since the very beginning of the year. Creepy, ain't it? I totally remember myself saying stuffs like, "2009 is not treating me well. I wish it isn't 2009." Bla bla bla. Glad I survived anyway.

I know I hadn't been the good Elaine in 2009. Especially in blogging. I'm so sorry I left my blog so long, indiscriminately. You know the funny thing is, I really mean it when I told people who asks, that I had no musings everytime I face my 'Dashboard' page. Everytime I see my 'Edit Posts' page, I feel so guilty and tries so damn hard to finish up my updates. Everytime I enter the 'New Post' page, all I can get are probably the first few lines and then I'm stuck. Seriously did ponder if I should switch to Twitter. You know, one line blogging. Yada yada. But then again, I guess that's just not what I'm gonna do. =)

*Facebook is not helping me in being good, either.*

I could probably have a million excuses why I hadn't been blogging much. *sigh* But I blame it all on 2009. =) This is a 2009 ender entry, so here goes.

As the year ends, so will everything that happened in it, with it. Whatever. I've promised that all of the bad will go with 2009, not to be brought together as I step into 2010. Matter-of-factly, I'm thinking I might not even remember the good ones. For when you want to reminisce of the good times, the bad will prevail in your mind as well. The good and the bad, always go together. The irony.

I probably don't need a reminder of how I dislike 2009 and all. That's why the lack of updates. Blogs are public. Published post are viewed and commented. Words written are evaluated. Bottomline, blogger must be cautious.

Sometimes, somethings I need to rant about could not be made public. It's personal. And through 2009, I found that I ain't that good being metaphoric anymore. It gets pretty tiring when you need to cover up something when you can't even do so. Exact reason why the lines of blogging, instead of paragraphs of entries. It's more relieving when you could just shout out that one line of rants, and noone would question alot about it because noone would be fed enough information to pose more questions. =)

Now here's the thing I've decided. The year will go and it will bring with it whatever that happened. Hence, I would not need to update anymore outdated entries. Yada yada. Good for me, in a way. Haha. What an excuse to be lazy. It helps definitely, to not be reminded of the year. It hurts to prolong lines of entries which requires lotsa thinking of how to put in metaphors. Especially when you don't want to do anymore thinking. Painful~

So if you're reading this, forgive me. The one year had gone with numerous tries to relive the blog, but to no avail. Guess I was too stuck up to be so tied up with whatever that happened that I see no way out for myself. So choked up, yet finds no place I could confide in. Not even my own personal ranting spot. How pathetic. So, this does it. No more. :)

Hear up for my New Year resolutions tomorrow. *hugs* Peace out for now~!

Friday, The Thirteenth.

All these while, I have always tried to avoid acting superstitious on Friday the 13th. That's because I can't remember a single (total) bad day on Friday the 13th. But today proved otherwise.

It's probably the worst day by far. After a whole lot of regaining period. I can't believe it could get worse. But it left me in shock. You left me in shock.

I really don't know what to do, nor should do. I don't even feel like doing anything at all, anymore. I was lost.

I really thought, no matter what happened or what I did, this was not going to repeat. But why do you prove it to me so differently?

Just when I told myself in the morning to have no fear for what-so-ever Friday the 13th, that's when it started that I realize everything is happening. Oh, damn the radio for reminding me.

But always, a whole hell-of-a-day is never too harsh on me. Thank God it was Friday anyway. Thank God my Mummy is in KL. Thank God for making me a strong girl now. Though as tough as I can be, I'm still in blur.

No matter what, I'm thankful it's over. But only God knows what'll be next. At least for the next few days, I cannot foresee how it will all be. God leads the way, please shine your light on me.

The Time Traveler's Wife.

This movie is simply just superrr-dee-duper! And those of you who have yet watched it, shoo on to the cinema now. Haha. Unpaid publicity. *gosh!*

I first heard of it on radio, but paid no attention to it. Then Yam came along and said it was wayyy better than she expected.

It was a movie day (for us), and we had no particular show in mind that we crave for. Michael Jackson: This is it, was gonna have to wait. The road is clear for The Time Traveler's Wife!

When it started, I thought it was gonna be JUST another romance movie, where they all live happily ever after. Bla bla bla. Boring, I know.

But little did I know, I was the one hoping that it is just another movie with happy ending towards the end. (Oops, spoiler alert!!)

I would've wept uncontrollably if the ending scene was to be just a fraction longer. *sobz*

Well, here's the thing. I didn't get to the cinema on time for the commercials, so I was a little lost at the beginning. (Haha. YES! It meant I was late for the movie! Gosh!)

Fortunately, it didn't take long before the plot sets in. Lucky for me, I came across the book in the bookstore earlier. So, I did have a look at the short synopsis behind it. :)

And yes again, it meant we didn't know what we were up for when we purchased the movie passes. =p

Before you watch this movie, you'd better be prepared and know what's coming your way. So, here, I'm giving you some help! Hahaha.

Lemme extract what I read from the back of the book. Lemme think...think.

So, Clare met Henry when she was 6 and he was over 30. That was the first time she met him. Henry met Clare when he was 28 and she was 20. That's the first time ever he met her. She knew everything about him, while he doesn't know her.

It sounded weird, but that's how the story goes. An incredible love story to make you really struggle to believe it alive. It makes you wonder more, wanting to know more.

But the ending was too heart-wrenching. I heard that the book has a different ending to it. The book is the next that I'm gonna buy, and hopefully to finish reading in the very near future.

Oh, one advice, tuck your rationale-seeking self to a corner when you watch this movie. Enjoy! *winks*

New November, Foreseen Hectic Days.

Sister came and went back. If only she could have stayed longer, then we could have done more shopping together in KL. *sigh*

I was supposed to have gone to Johor Bahru with him, but there had been a change in plan at the very last minute. I felt really bad about it, but I had to do what I have to do.

I had to stay back. God knows how it would be if I hadn't. :)

Last you heard from me was pleading for September to ends. Now, October ended too. And here comes November.

Gosh, October was too fast. I had alot to update but just had no time!!! Once I finished internship, I had gone on a real holiday! Best, longest holiday I had by far. From the south to the north of Malaysia. In and out of Malaysia, too. Out for only a day. Better than none. *winks*

I've done alot of shopping too. Which is really bad. I've spent alot, too much that I need to start thinking of ways to generate real cash! Hehe. Any ideas, or suggestion?

That was the beginning of October, and I will be updating soon about all that I have done (real hopeful). And hell yeah, I'm supposed to be busy working on giving my FYP its starting momentum right now. But what am I doing?

Hehe. I had a great weekend. Too great that it isn't stressful enough to get me going. Worst of all, I can't seem to get the stuffs I want and need. I'm not even sure if I could get it all done.

Have I made a wrong choice? Don't tell. Shush. I don't need to know. :)

Wish me luck for the months to come. Cheers!

One Day Is Too Short, And Too Long.

All at the same time. Why can't we just manipulate time and space, just like Hiro Nakamura, just to be able to do what we like? Oh, right. Cause we're in REALITY.

Yes, I'm watching too much of movies. Heroes, in particular. Blame me not. I'm trying to catchup on the episodes I have missed since Season 3, when I couldn't get my hands on the downloads. And eventually, I've missed the whole season and the new one too. That said, I have lots of watching to be done. :)

Waiting, and waiting. Awaiting my Daddy and Mummy to pick me up, then we'll be off to pick up my Jie Jie. That's after bidding goodbye to him. Sorry, I couldn't stay on the plan. It was really unexpected for me too. I wish to be there too. I was excited for it, in fact. Oh well, there's the other chance for better celebrations. :) I can't wait!

One day. Sis coming and leaving tomorrow, with Dad. Back to Penang. *sobz*

Just one day. He'll be back from the south. *yay*

One day. Oh, how short and long it seemed. All at the same time. *sigh*

Anyhow, I guess I'd want to make it the long one. Let's try to have some fun, Sister. :) I'm glad you're here.

Insecurity Is Painful...

...to the 'F', to the 'Y', to the 'P'!

It's so stressful. To think that I have started early, there are people who have started even earlier than I was. Way earlier. I've lost. But it ain't official. I believe I still have the chance. As long as I am not rejected, I would not give up. God forbids. :)

I've sent in the second proposal. As per requested. Is it gonna be accepted? Oh, please God, let it be. I don't know what I'll do if I don't get it. Well, I do have a second backup plan. But seriously, God, it doesn't seem quite like a very good plan. Don't you think so too?

Yet God, it seemed very convincing that there is no need for second plan. How'd You do that?! I have it in me, something keeps telling me not to worry. It's all gonna be alright. I'm worrying over nothing.

Am I? I prefer an answer quick. Or I meant, a quick answer. Hehe. I just need an answer!! I don't wanna be wondering, guessing anymore. Please, please, please. Pretty, please?

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Updated on 29th October 2009.

What can I say?! It's confirmed!! God is gooooooood!! I knew it all along! It was gonna be just fineeeeeeee. *big grin*

Thank you, God! Thank you, Dr Ong! Haha. But still, it wasn't pleasant at first. *sulks*

Oh well. I've got a title now. I'm gonna work hard to keep it, and to secure an A!! Hopefully. ^^

The Month Of Holidays.

Currently, I'm in Johor Bahru. What am I doing here? No reason, except to be with him on his birthday. :)

So, why the title of the post so? No reason, except I'm feeling that I really need to put my plans in action. All plans and no action make Elaine a real bore. So, I'm gonna start with JB. Then it's gonna be Singapore. And then there's the road trip around north.

I can't wait for all these to come along. But for now, I'm just glad that I'm here, in JB.

Wake Me Up When September Ends.

Somehow this Green Day's song has finally meant something to me already. Haha. Before, there was never a reason why would I be anticipating for September to end.

But right now, I can't wait for the 30th to comeeeeeeeeeee. Oh c'mon already!

It isn't like I have anymore of assignments or such to work on anymore. I have been just sitting around since like a month or more already!! I've had enough!!

Can you imagine reading news from The Star online to New Straits Times online to New York Times online?! Gosh!! I've never seen myself more interested in the sadness of the world. Not like I wanted to anyway. I even know news from the Tuol Sleng! *sobz*

Still, I guess the worst part of all news would be the political state in Malaysia! Satu Malaysia!! Malaysia setentunya boleh! :P

Please kindly wake me up only when September ends. Three more days to go, counting down. ;)

I've so much to do! So many plans to be initiated! Weeeee~~

*p/s: Sorry for the lack of updates. Will do it soon. Be prepared to see lotsa backdated posts *winks* Cheers, people. Off for now. :)

Admittedly Angry Over Unworthy Stuffs.

I'm angry. Why is it my fault? What have you said so unfairly to make people think that you are innocent and it is my fault to cause these situations to happen?

I really don't understand. Have I done wrong avoiding myself when I don't feel invited? When I don't feel welcomed? I don't blame you for putting on a show with your expressions when you see me or any other time at all. It's your face. But I won't avoid from admitting that I don't like it. You have the freedom to frown and be rude, but I also have the freedom to stay clear of what I despise seeing. And to be frank, I'm glad I'm off radar.

At first, I was stupid enough to feel uneasy thinking what could you have said. Thank God it didn't last long. Cause then again, you know what. I don't even care. I can't always be bothered of what you think and to worry of what you'd say to people. Even though that it's not true.

I'm still glad I made the right move, the right choice. Having done all that in my part did not mean I was being offensive, I was merely saving my own butt. I certainly ain't gonna engage in any arguments or anything of that such with any of you. It just isn't worthy. :) I've learnt better than to do that. So don't try to overdo anything at all.

Bottomline, I'm happy with the way and the direction my life is leading to now. You don't make a difference. Praise to the Lord. Peace out!

Go Away, Whatever-You-Are!!

You're making me ache all day, all night. The pain you're causing me! Heck! If only I know what you are, it'll be easier then to counter-attack you.

At first, I totally thought it was just an ulcer. An ulcer grown at a very, very, very wrong spot. And so I thought it would go away pretty soon. Well, ulcer do go away eventually in like, a couple of days, right? Well, at least based on experience, mine did most of the time. The longest it took was probably just 4 days (I guess?). Hehe.

But it's been almost two weeks. So why is it still here?!

I did suspect that it wasn't ulcer after a week actually, so I did what I didn't dare to do before (cause it hurt alot, understand? *sobz*). I used my finger to inspect on the "crime-scene". The crime: hurting Elaine. The scene: gap between the wisdom tooth and upper jaw.

As I reckoned, it truly was a swell. But whyyyyyyyy? =( It hurts alot! I can't open my mouth bigger than an inch (or lesser). I can't open my mouth to feed myself like normal. Worse of all, I can't chew! Even drinking water hurts. Oh, not to mention my saliva! *wails!*

I'm taking my medicines now. And even that hurts. It still ain't subsiding. Help!!

Damn you, wisdom tooth! I know you're the cause. So said my docs too! I hate you. But I'm too phobic to get rid of you. Haha. Oh, the dilemma.

It's Finally Tomorrow.

It really seemed easy at first. To be away from one another in these four months. I never see it as a challenge, nor did I see it as a test. All it seemed from the very beginning was, it's a good thing to be able to go home. Our homes, respectively. I'm sure our parents missed us well.

"Four months isn't really as long as it sounds. With a blink of an eye, it's all gone," I found myself saying. That was obviously before, a month ago to be exact.

But it was a no-regret sorta thing. I'm still glad we're able to spend the time at home even if it meant spending the time away from being together. I sound too generous, don't I? Haha. Bear in mind, it's only for four months.

Three weeks have passed, and it's going to be finally tomorrow! Oh, the eagerness and excitement. And the nervousness!! Haha. Yes, hell yeah, I'm nervous. Which is probably the reason why these three weeks was much more of a brief anyway.

I'll be waiting for tomorrow to come. I'm sure you'll score well anyway. ^o^

If I Were There.

Have you ever been in a situation when you are listening to a story told and wished you were there to slap the antagonist back to conciousness?

Well, I have. I've been in a lot of such situations for the past few days especially (never to mention, in my life). Not only was i wishing to slap the antagonist, sometimes I wish I could smack everyone else in it as well. I was practically shouting in my mind, "Oh holy mother of God! Wake up, you idiots!!".

But as sad as it may or would be, thoughts remained as it is, thoughts. Whatever we thought we would do could never be done. One obvious reason is of course, we weren't there at the time it happens. But more importantly is the fact that we still have that little space left from the boundaries of our limits. And this space is what keeps us from bursting into loud gestures, to keep our cool.

For my case. I guess it would be because I never had the privilege to slap and smack anyone in the story. I'm the little character who is expected to just remain silent and keep mum. I'm the background tree that could only listen and sway but never speak up.

Heck, I won't be dumb. There will come a day when I will be there and you (whoever you are) would be getting a piece of MY mind. A frigging huge piece indeed. You just wait for it. Patience has its limits. Peace out!

Happy Birthday Dad!!

Today, we shall be heading back to home home home in Penang! Oooo... ^^

Though it's his birthday, he still had to drive the long way home today. This again is one of those many times when I surely hope I'm the pro in driving! Gosh~ When will this wishing end?

Well, Mom said I'll be the one driving myself to work during the internship. We'll see how that'll go.

Dad, wont you wish for that to come true for me as well? Part of your birthday wish aight? Hehe.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DADDY!

Love you loads! :)

Missing It Finally.

I remember when I first left Penang for Malacca for foundation studies. I hated the place here, being alone and all. Staying in the hostel didn't help at all. I felt totally dumped. I absolutely remember how Yam and I would fight with Shad about how much better is Penang compared to Malacca. Haha, oh the foolishness back then.

As time goes by, I found friends. In class and in hostel. Suddenly, even staying in that damp ol' dark creepy hostel doesn't seem to be that bad anymore. Laughters had bring life to our hostel rooms. Arguments and naughty taunts just, erm well [as much as I hated to admit this], brought much more than just fun to the times we had in the classes.

Then, I remember leaving Malacca for Cyberjaya after that year. Oh, how I am beginning to miss Malacca already. Maybe it's the company in Malacca that I'm missing most. But Malacca didn't seem that bad when it first was anymore. The hatred has now turned its attention to Cyberjaya, the intelligent land. *bah!* Oh well, it's stupid how it's "intelligent" and yet so dead. While most of my best buds stayed in Malacca's campus, I'm basically here very alone, once again.

Bla bla bla... Time flies. It's finally the time I've been waiting for since the very first day stepping into the grounds of MMU. Haha. Internship!!

And hell yeah, I got what I wanted. To work in Penang!! *winks*

But now, I'm missing Cyberjaya. Okay, fine. So the reason is mostly him. Still...

There was a life there like nowhere else. And the life is called, Uni-life. Cool name, eh? =p

I'll miss you. :) But I missed home too. So boo-yah. I'm going home!! See you again in four-months, Cyberjaya. And you baby, see you in a month.

I Survived It All.

Finally the ordeal is over! I finally experienced the devilic consequences of taking six god-bless [LOL] subjects in a trimester. And now I'm free from it. Well, not quite yet. But the continuation of it will only affect me probably 3 weeks later. And that's when the results are out. Brr~~~ Right, don't wanna think about that first.

Thinking back on the study and exam weeks, it is kinda like a blur now. All I knew was I studied quite like mad [I hope], I played like mad, I watched movies like mad, I ate like mad. But I didn't quite slept like mad. *sighs* I totally couldn't quite get a grip of myself after the Nano-Science paper. I just wanted to sleep like mad, but I couldn't cause I have one last paper to go. And now...nyahaha~~

Okay I shouldn't brag about my sleeping hours now for I still have to keep my moral support for one fella who still has 2 more papers to go in 2 days. I totally understand the hardship of it, since I had my own go at it. But of course we couldn't compare for I felt luckier to have my arrangement of exam schedules, if not better.
Having 3 papers in 3 days, one could not help but saturates his/her brain. Not to mention those who have 4. But none of it could feel any worse if it had been in the first week, when you could just get it over and done with. I felt like as if I was already on holidays right after the very first paper, and it is sooooo not good.

Now that the exams are over, it's time to pack. No more of last minute packing this time. For I will be going home for FOUR months! Internship, here I come! We'll talk about my excitement for internship later on. Hehe.
I thought alot about alot of stuffs [haha~] during the exam weeks. Internship, 4 months to be back in Penang, what can I do, what would I do, etc etc. Oh gosh~~ XD
Too distractive!!

I'm just sooooooo blady-ful glad my exams are finally over! [Sorry. :P]


p/s:
This is a humble request to any persons who leave a message on my chatbox on the sidebar. I'd appreciate it if you could kindly leave a nickname or something appropriate rather than just a 'Guest' from now on okay? I wish I could distinguish you people from one another. And I certainly do not appreciate inappropriate behaviour out of nowhere and no reason at all directed to any of my friends on that chatbox. If you've got guts to post it up, have guts to own up to it. So embarassing. I shall not respond to any 'Guest' messages from now on.
Peace out~ ;)

Love You, Mom!

It's that time of the year again, and I'm not back to my cozy home-y. Man, this sucks. But Penang is wayyy too far at this moment. *sigh*

I miss you, Mom. Miss you too, Dad. =D
Wish that I'm there. Wish that you're here. Either way. Tee-hee.

Can't wait to get home at the end of the month, minus the exams and internship.
Oh, well, since I'm still here...I'll try to study harder. *sobz* Sis take over and celebrate ya~
Love you guys! Will be home soon. *winks*

This goes out to all Mothers out there. *cheers*

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

To Think That We've Elected Them.

I was reading the newspaper earlier on and was not quite surprised when I saw the front page. I guess I kinda got used to watching these kinda things happening during their meetings. But I never really would have thought that this IS bigger news.

Remember the time when I was at home and we watched the news about the fight among Taiwanese leaders on tv, and we laughed and said, "Tsk tsk, to think that they're the elected bunch in the country".
What do you think the outsiders would think of Malaysia now? *sighs*

I read the whole 'agenda' on The Star newspaper and saw the video posted on Jia Xing's blog. And the disappointment just adds on. But I can't deny that it is kinda funny! =p It's like those kids fighting in school. I don't think I'd wanna post it here, the video is just too noisy and annoying. :)
Hop over to Jia Xing's blog, aight.

Have a good laugh. Ciaoz.

Loving Windows 7.

Appearance-wise, hell yeah. Seems to me everyone is getting the frenzy. And I, for sure, got this frenzy from him. He downloaded it the very minute it was released yesterday and could not sit still in the library since then, knowing that it could take years to download it with my laptop on wireless. Pfffftttttt~~
To me, what's the big deal, man?! Hehe.

But now that he's installed it, I sudah tergerak-gerak wanna upgrade my Vista to Windows 7.
It does look nice. It's more or less still look like Vista but only a level higher. It seemed that Microsoft had picked up on our complains and done a whole list of improvements.

The taskbar function is the most catchy one by far. Here's what Microsoft described of it.

The taskbar at the bottom of your screen is what you use to launch programs and switch between them when they're open. In Windows 7 you can pin any program to the taskbar so it’s always just a click away, and you can rearrange the icons on the taskbar just by clicking and dragging. We’ve made the icons considerably bigger, too, so they’re easier to use. Hover over the icons and you’ll see thumbnails of every file or window that open in that program, and if you hover over the thumbnail, you’ll see a full-screen preview of that window. Move the cursor off the thumbnail and the full-screen preview disappears.

Cool eh. Sounds cool, looks cool. But imagine you TER-hover across some thumbnails with your boss looking over your shoulder. Habis. So much for pretending to work hard. *giggles*

Windows 7 also comes with a whole lot of new and different themes. There's the one with Easter bunnies, one with the teddies in robot suit, one with the fishy, etc etc etc...
I used to have slideshow of all my photos in the folder, but never had I had desktop background of a slideshow. Now, it's becoming possible with Windows 7. So cool!!

Oh my God!! I'm so excited already. I had just been blabbing about what Windows 7 looks like on the desktop, haven't had I even talked about the upgrades on the other features. I just got to know a few from him. All being the greatness of Windows 7. Haha. Normal larh kan? New things sure angkat-angkat sikit. Later we'll see if there's as many complains as Vista. Haha!

I really am so tempted to switch right now. But at the same time, I'm really lazy to take the trouble to upgrade my laptop. What if anything happens. Oh, boy. What a hassle it will be then.
But I'm really fascinated with all the new and cool features of Windows 7. Oh, God. Gosh~~ Tempting, tempting!
Should I? Should I? Ahhh~~ I should be studying!!


p/s: Apasal so many Malay words around in this post ni? Hehe.

Slow Connection.

I hate it when the internet is running so slowly. Why can't my browser just load faster? Okay, maybe not faster cause that'd be too much to ask for. But why can't it at least run like it used to.
Just load it okay?! Just don't waste my time!

I've waited for almost half an hour for this page to load. Some minutes though some pages would actually load faster than the one I REALLY wanna log in to. How much dumber could it be?!

I'm getting so pissed off now. It's okay if you didn't realize the time you spend just waiting in front of the computer. But that'll be another story once you realized that you've spent all your precious time doing nothing and just waiting. It just got me a frigging headache. Gosh~!

So much for relaxing myself with some games online. I couldn't even get this one thing done! Grrr~~!!
And yes! It's still loading.....
Yoh~! Faster larhhhhhhh~~!!!

May I?

It's the new month again. Just one more month till the end of the trimester. One more month till we all start to work. Oh, no serious jobs, just interns. Hehe. I'm going back to Penang!!
Four whole months back to home sweet home. Four whole months without him. Sigh~ Give and take, Elaine! Give and take.

One more month of stress awaits. Final exams will start on the 18th of June. That's less than half a month away. Coping with 6 subjects this trimester is a kill, yet I've chosen so thus I have to go thru so.
Counting down, I supposedly have 18 days left, divided equally 3 days per subject. Haha! I must be a genius to be able to finish cramming the whole subject taught in a whole trimester in just 3 days! Pfffttt~~

I was supposed to have done my 'study timetable' today. I was supposed to have started revising on my first subject today. Note, supposed to.
Clearly, nothing was done. Hehe. No, I'm not proud of it. But, what can I do?
Today, it's Labour Day. I should get a break.

Okay, fine. So, I couldn't and I didn't get a day break. Yet, a whole day was dedicated to finishing our assignment coding, beautifying it and repairing those glitches. I hope everything will be done by tomorrow. So that whatever happened on Tuesday will not occur once again, or I will definitely explode! Ka-booom!

Should catch some sleep now. Waste no time, Elaine. Waste no time. Toodles. :)

A Week It Lasts...With Wolverine!

It had been quite a stressful week. I guess the worst of it all was missing a quiz I had never intended to miss. It got me so pissed off, I was eff-ed up that I couldn't even utter a word about it, not to mention blogging. So am I glad it's over? I'm still not quite sure. Probably I do still wish that I never had to miss out on that quiz, given that I have done almost everything and it shouldn't have had happened. Oh, well.

Finally finished all my midterms. But it's already time to start studying for my finals. How great is that. How fun is that. =.="
Two more assignments to go. Final touches on the Mastermind game and reports for both assignments and I'm off the hook.

On the lighter side, X-Men Origins: Wolverine is out! And because my midterms are all finished, I guess it does give me a reason to relax a little and celebrate just a little. :)


It was such an awesome movie! Not gonna speak of its synopsis, cause it will be a spoiler. Hehe. Buuutttt, if you insist, read it here. *winks*

I do have this to say though. It's an AWESOME movie! And you so got to watch it in the cinema, for only in the cinema would you get the superb effect. Unless of course you have a 40-over-inch plasma TV with a super duper bang bang boom surround sound system at home, then please say home and watch it in full HD!! [You may invite us as well. *grins*]

I wouldn't mind watching it again. Though I do prefer if there's another ending to it. A happier ending perhaps? One where the two persons in love could be together, or at the very least remembered. Or one where the cute Ryan Reynolds does not have to be the human Frankenstein! *Sobz~*


What a waste of a good character. You have got to see his samurai skills! Haha. Awesome, baby!!
And there's also the Will.I.Am! I got a shock seeing his name at the beginning of the movie. I thought he only sings, never ever crossed my mind he could be a jumper. Cool, man! Hehe.

Hugh Jackman is goooooooood. Period. Watch it. Period.
Night night! *Lights off*

Oh, wait. I have GOT to say this. Watch closely at the beginning of the movie. You might see some scenes from other movies. Perhaps Saving Private Ryan? Ahakz~


You'll know I'm right~ Good night, Blobs!

I Don't Mind Forwards.

There are over a hundred unread emails in my Hotmail-box again. Since I'm really pissed right now and have practically no mood to do anything in mind, I've decided to read them.
I love forwarded mails. Though some could be quite irritating, especially those disguising to be some sorta chain mails or some charity mails, but some others are quite interesting and informative. I especially love those meaningful ones.

Today, I found another mail that caught my heart. It's about this short movie clip which won some Berlin's Award. And the title of the clip is called Chicken A-la Carte.

At first, the whole clip may seem to be a little irrelevant, but please keep watching. It's worth your few minutes. And maybe at the end of it, you'll appreciate your chicken meat more now. :)

http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

Appreciate whatever you have. Don't waste. Did you see the smile and laughter on those children? :)

I know some brats out there would think that, "If I don't waste, where would they get food then."
All I can say is..... May God bless you. =_____="

The Feeling Of Being Afraid.

Yes, I'm afraid. Of what? Of running out of time.
And having to rely on the speed of how others would work. The worst of it all, having to rely on the decision that how the person in particular would make.

I hate this. I hate having to wait on others, having to depend on what others felt like deciding. Especially when I'm running out of time, I hate this!!!
I can't just sit here and wait. But what else can I do?! I'm freaking out. I freaked out, yes. And now I am freaking out AGAIN.

There's noone who can help. Not even myself at this point, except to stay confident and hopeful.
But where can confidence and hope bring me? I'd love to believe I'll go far with just that. However, part of me still is sober enough to realize that I can't just live on those. But how?!
I'm freaking out AGAIN. Gosh~!

I think I'm gonna sedatives soon if this doesn't get settled and go away.

H-E-L-P!!! *sobz*

My Ranting Spot.

My friends said, when you post something on your blog, it's for the world to see, to read and to judge.

For me, my blog is MY ranting spot. I rant what I want. I'd say what I like. Up to certain limits in life, I have my own considerations. Therefore, I wouldn't disagree to say that it's pretty sad to have to control yourself at times when you're reaching to burst out of your patience.

I probably ain't the best metaphoric-person around nor do I intend to be one, but that doesn't mean it's a deciphering game in my blog. I used to have this friend who would read and come to me and tell me about the way I write. How obvious I tell to the world of my problems. That made me wanted to switch to WordPress, in which I could set password to some private blogposts and publicised only the happy ones. Seriously, c'mon. It's pretty ridiculous to come to think of it.

Of course, I cannot deny that I do still stop myself from publishing some posts that I think is just not up for the world. Like I said, I have my own considerations. However, I believe one day, my patience will run low and that's when someone will get a dedication and the world would know. [Haha.] But till then, I'll still try to keep it in.

And when that day comes, I don't mind people reading, that's why I posted it up. I don't mind people commenting, positively or negatively towards me, I'll be ready for it. I don't mind people judging, cause I know nobody wouldn't.

I know of people who would read my blog and talk about it behind my back [technically, though I came to know of it later on]. I really don't mind people gossiping or judging, for that matter. But try to be reasonable and just. It's very unfair to misjudge what I write and very unfair to stop me from writing what I intend to.

Reason for this post. Nothing. Just finding things to rant about since I couldn't rant about what I want. =)

*Long Overdue* Sushi Dinner.

Okay, so this is long overdue. Until I almost forgot I wanted to post this up. Better late than never.
*Warning: More overdue posts coming up. ;)*

Dated: 14 March 2009.

Just another Saturday afternoon in Cyberia, bored and lazy. So, the four of us (eLaiNe, Chee Wei, Yamunah and Soon Ming) headed to Alamanda for lunch and window-shopped in Cold Storage after. Like I said, it was a boring and lazy-fying Saturday afternoon. But I don't know what exactly came over us that we suddenly decide to play masak-masak for dinner.
Japanese will be our theme for the night. Reason being that I have this sushi set thingy that I bought awhile back wanting to make some sushi, but got no sushi rice. Haha! Second reason is that Soon Ming is a Japanese fanatic. ;)

Having this plan in mind, we skipped our ooh-and-ahhs session in Cold Storage and rushed to Carrefour to get our ingredients. Got home. Rest for a coupla minutes or an hour or so, and off we go. Cooking time!

Started with preparing the ingredients, and yes my house's kitchen is messy and crowded with the four of us walking up and down, not knowing what to do first. Real noobsters. =p

This is our favourite 'okonomiyaki'. Top with the sauces and bonito flakes (or 'katsuobushi'). ^^ Yummy. I don't wanna brag, but hell yeah, our 'okonomiyaki' is wayyyyyyy better than Sushi King's!!! *pfffffttttt*

Then there's tempura. Fried vegetables and fried crabmeat-sticks. Oily. *yikes*

Part of the main dish - sushi. My task. I don't even know why I'm on this task! I know no nuts about this, although I may have fooled around with making sushi back in high school. Hahaha! Don't even remind me!
So, anyway...It didn't turn out too bad afterall.

It took us almost 3 hours to prepare this dinner! Worthwhile though. :)

We are all so beat up by the end of it. It took us another hour or so just to clean the whole place up!!!

I Hate Spiders.

I hate! I hate! Yes, I hate hate hate. I frigging hate SPIDERS!!!

'nuff said.

So why does one have to frigging appear right in front of me?!?! One BIG one, mind you.
I've always resented seeing those small ones at home. You know those that would scramble around and just disturb your peaceful life? Ones that you just HAD to crush with something, fearing that if you don't, it'll come around again one moment later. And surely I don't want that to ever happen.
Not that I enjoy crushing it anyway. I just had to.

And today is just another day when the spiders have to disturb me. =(
We were both happily watching a movie after lunch at home, and that's when I thought I saw something crawled on the wall very quickly. I told him and he said nothing. Then, he looked again....

Waaaa!! He tried to kill it but it went away before he could. He told me it went out of the window. [Trying to cheat me to assure me it's safe.] Of course, I don't believe him! His window is sealed with the mosquitoe net!
So, he promised to overturn his room just to make me see that there's nomore spider around.

And boy was he wrong! When he pulled out a sheet from under his bedframe, this stupig BIG FAT spider practically jumped straight right up at him and scrambled along beside me.
Naturally, I screamed. Unnaturally, I cried. Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!

I hate, hate, hate, hate, I hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee SPIDERS!!

So, anyway, the spider slid into his cousin's room. Now, he's telling me that they both had killed the spider. Barbequed it as a matter of fact. [With the mosquitoe-squat that runs on battery. Know?]

Should I fear that there's no second one? I'm still terrified!!

Proud Of Proton.

*blushes* I know, I know. A LIL hard to believe. But hell yeah, I'm so proud of Proton right now.


I admit I did have a LIL influence from him to watch this speech from Dato Syed Zainal during the launch of Proton Exora the other day. We missed it then as we have no access to the TV, remember? =.=" [Well, not like it mattered to me then. Shhh.]

So, anyway, this favourite website of his posted it up, and I'm kinda attracted to watch along. Daym~ This MD could really present ALMOST like the Steve Jobs from Apple. [Alright, another influence from him.]
Seriously, you should visit paultan.org for this one. As a Malaysian, do not [I repeat DO NOT] miss this launching. ^^

Along the speech, I'd have to say we gotta give him for admitting the problems with Proton cars and how they came to overcome it. And also about how to meet Malaysians requirements in cars.

European technology, Japanese design, Malaysian price.

Pheewittt~~ Typical, typical of Malaysians. Haha. But, you see. That's what makes your products sell. You gotta know your market well, know their needs and meet them.
Haha. I'm still very surprised to hear it when he said Proton included the 'teh tarik' packet holder in the car. [Okay, that wasn't his exact words, but still...=p]

[Cool, eh? Bet all you out there had wished for something like that before. I know my Mom sure had!]

At the end of the speech, he thanked Tun Mahathir who is the founder of Proton. And yes, I'm proud of him too. Super proud! =p
And there's our new Prime Minister sitting next to Tun. ^^
[And there's alot of stupig and funny comments I told Chee Wei along the speech, which of course I won't be saying it here. Pfffft~~~]

All in all. I gotta say this too. GOOD JOB, PROTON!

Imagine being in the team who have brought this to life and reality. My Momma's gonna be so proud of me and point to every Exora on the road saying, "My daughter designed that!"
ROFLMAO!

The Prestige.

Aha~ Watched another movie for the night. All because he could not be in the mood for anything. Poor thing. Why can't some people just stop adding worries onto his mind? And that 'some people' includes one lil fella who just won't understand. Bah~
Whatever it is, back to our topic. :)

After almost THREE years, I finally turn it on.

The Prestige.

Cool movie, although we did take quite some time putting it on pause just to figure some of the things out at the first few minutes. Somehow, I couldn't differentiate the Dark Knight from the Wolverine at first. =p
So, I had a little problem figuring what is and what's not. Even now I'm still buffed from what is and what's not.

More terrifying is the fact that Angier finally didn't mind getting his hands dirty. And I super hate that. I don't understand how could he just drown each of his duplicates and still keep them?! [Whoops. Spoiler alert. Whoops. Too late. =p]
And I super respect Borden. Or erm, Fallon. [Whoops. Another spoiler alert. Whoops. Late again. =p] Total devotion. :) Very terrifying indeed too! Tsk tsk~

Gosh. Does hatred really blinds so badly until you would just do anything to get back at that person until you finally forget what you were really hating him for? I guess I gotta be extra careful from now on. I don't hate nobody, don't worry. Hate is a very strong word. ;)

Obsession versus total devotion to his art. A lot of sacrifice. [Poor Sarah. *sobz*]

Are you watching closely? *winks*

Movies Movies Movies.

I love movies. And they're basically the best companion at times when you need a little escape.
For the past week, the hectic days and stress were really piling and stomping me down. Yet, I just can't work in pure silence. As usual I would turn on some songs, or even any shows. Just for the sake of some noise.

So, anyway. I just wanna blog about the three movies I've watched over the week [and a few days, I think]. Along which I also watched a couple of Shin Chan movies, and a gazillion re-runs of Kung Fu Panda.
Awww, c'mon. I love the Panda. I especially loved the way it was beautifully drawn with every details so carefully penned down.

Well, now. First movie~

Marley And Me!

[Awww.. Isn't he such a cute little "Clearance Puppy"?]

What I just knew is that "Marley & Me is based on the best-selling autobiographical book by columnist John Grogan". So it's a real story afterall. *winks*

Throughout the movie, there are so many hilarious scenes. I especially laughed at the part when Marley had to lose his balls. And then there's another one when Connor innocently mentioned that his daddy said that Colleen's name is "whoops".
Throughout the movie as well, there were scenes when I did feel a little annoyed with Marley's hyperactive and disobedient character. Still, at the end of day, Marley got my heart.

Just like any other movies, I always look forward to a good ending. And this gave me another good one to remember by.
He may not be any expensive dog, or the most obedient dog in the world. But he is just another member of the family.

In the words of John Grogan,
"A dog has no use for fancy cars, big homes, or designer clothes. A water log stick will do just fine. A dog doesn't care if your rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb. Give him your heart and he'll give you his. How many people can you say that about? How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special? How many people can make you feel extraordinary?"


Second to go~

Bride Wars!

[Why are they so happy if they're at war?!?!]

At first, I really thought of it to be ridiculous to have a movie like this. But I gave it a go anyhow, since I did kinda run out of movies to watch and I really didn't want to watch something serious just yet.

I just don't understand why they couldn't just have a wedding together, instead of all those fights. How could their friendship since at childhood be so weak just because of a wedding VENUE?!?!?! Gosh!

So anyway I went on to watch it, and hey~ It wasn't that bad afterall. Well, all the fights were quite entertaining, though lame and nonsensical. Remember the scenes when Anne Hathaway got tanned to be a walking safety cone. And Kate Hudson got her hair blue. Bah~

But what really got to me isn't quite their friendship. =___= [Not the thing I expect to see.]
What I saw was the difference of how their fiances stood up for them when they were in a fight. Liv was lucky that her man was there for her when she felt the worst about getting into a fight with her 'best-friend', while Emma was not so lucky.
And it's stupig how she finally got together with Liv's brother. Oh, for God's sake!!!!

Anyway, here's one worth watching. Last one I just finished watching like a few minutes ago~

Slumdog millionaire!
[Mind you, this movie had won 8 Oscars!]

"When somebody asks me a question, I tell them the answer."

That's how it is. Even for me. Only difference was, he's asked the questions that led him to become a millionaire. Hahaha~

Okay, what's no joke is that I would never want to learn of the answers to those questions the way he did. No way. No money could ever ever ever lure me to go through that! No no no no no~~

While watching the movie, we both got a little realistic and thought, "What a coincident". And sweat, not literally. =P
Well, if you really give thoughts to it, you'd question it yourself too wondering "Where got so ngam wan!". But heck, it is that ngam (coincidental) in this movie.
Still, I shut that thought up by saying, "Just watch. Shush!". Typical, typical. Hehe.

All in all, the movie is still a very good one to watch. It really did bring the audience to see the life of a slumdog. So sad.

Though I did expect a better ending with a more catchy line than just......"Kiss me."
Gosh!! Isn't there a better line to it?! How much more gaudy could it get anyway?

Oh oh..and then...and then...what good is a movie from India if it's without a dance, huh? Awww.. *winks*

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Hehe~ Alrighty, that's all for now. Wonder what my next movie gonna be. Oh, there's so many in the list right now. If only I got them. :)
Time to catch some sleep...AGAIN. Nights, everyone~ ;)

Too Tired To Sleep.

...erm, not quite~~~

I totally slept like a pig since afternoon. A whole 4 hours of sleep. And yes, it felt like ages since I last did that. I haven't even been sleeping so well in my night sleep [applied to only the past week.]. I even skipped my lunch for this long-awaited sleep! Haha~

One could really sleep better when you're feeling just, not care-free like totally, but at least when you're not that tensed up. During the past week, I really had so much in my mind and suddenly it felt like the whole world's coming onto me all at once. That everything's that had been on the in-tray are all due to be submitted onto the out-tray, like ASAP. All in a week. So much work, so little time!!

Well, what I did was take things one at a time. And boy, was it hard! It felt so much easier when I told others this. No matter how much I told myself to go step by step, the image of the path ahead just kept pushing it's way into my mind. Especially when I am about to sleep, or worse, when I'm in sleep!!
All the troubles needing solutions. All the datelines I have to meet. I just hate to be awake anyhow.

For now. Somehow I felt like a few tonnes of load off my shoulder for a little while. At least I'm able to rest a LITTLE while before the next sleepless week to come. Wish me luck~

Righty~ Off to stuffing myself with food now. And it's my favourite too.
....SUSHI~!!! Ah, Sushi King will do just fine this time. And it's on promotion~! Double the fun. ^^ Ciaoz~!