Friday, The Thirteenth.

All these while, I have always tried to avoid acting superstitious on Friday the 13th. That's because I can't remember a single (total) bad day on Friday the 13th. But today proved otherwise.

It's probably the worst day by far. After a whole lot of regaining period. I can't believe it could get worse. But it left me in shock. You left me in shock.

I really don't know what to do, nor should do. I don't even feel like doing anything at all, anymore. I was lost.

I really thought, no matter what happened or what I did, this was not going to repeat. But why do you prove it to me so differently?

Just when I told myself in the morning to have no fear for what-so-ever Friday the 13th, that's when it started that I realize everything is happening. Oh, damn the radio for reminding me.

But always, a whole hell-of-a-day is never too harsh on me. Thank God it was Friday anyway. Thank God my Mummy is in KL. Thank God for making me a strong girl now. Though as tough as I can be, I'm still in blur.

No matter what, I'm thankful it's over. But only God knows what'll be next. At least for the next few days, I cannot foresee how it will all be. God leads the way, please shine your light on me.

One Day Is Too Short, And Too Long.

All at the same time. Why can't we just manipulate time and space, just like Hiro Nakamura, just to be able to do what we like? Oh, right. Cause we're in REALITY.

Yes, I'm watching too much of movies. Heroes, in particular. Blame me not. I'm trying to catchup on the episodes I have missed since Season 3, when I couldn't get my hands on the downloads. And eventually, I've missed the whole season and the new one too. That said, I have lots of watching to be done. :)

Waiting, and waiting. Awaiting my Daddy and Mummy to pick me up, then we'll be off to pick up my Jie Jie. That's after bidding goodbye to him. Sorry, I couldn't stay on the plan. It was really unexpected for me too. I wish to be there too. I was excited for it, in fact. Oh well, there's the other chance for better celebrations. :) I can't wait!

One day. Sis coming and leaving tomorrow, with Dad. Back to Penang. *sobz*

Just one day. He'll be back from the south. *yay*

One day. Oh, how short and long it seemed. All at the same time. *sigh*

Anyhow, I guess I'd want to make it the long one. Let's try to have some fun, Sister. :) I'm glad you're here.

Insecurity Is Painful...

...to the 'F', to the 'Y', to the 'P'!

It's so stressful. To think that I have started early, there are people who have started even earlier than I was. Way earlier. I've lost. But it ain't official. I believe I still have the chance. As long as I am not rejected, I would not give up. God forbids. :)

I've sent in the second proposal. As per requested. Is it gonna be accepted? Oh, please God, let it be. I don't know what I'll do if I don't get it. Well, I do have a second backup plan. But seriously, God, it doesn't seem quite like a very good plan. Don't you think so too?

Yet God, it seemed very convincing that there is no need for second plan. How'd You do that?! I have it in me, something keeps telling me not to worry. It's all gonna be alright. I'm worrying over nothing.

Am I? I prefer an answer quick. Or I meant, a quick answer. Hehe. I just need an answer!! I don't wanna be wondering, guessing anymore. Please, please, please. Pretty, please?

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Updated on 29th October 2009.

What can I say?! It's confirmed!! God is gooooooood!! I knew it all along! It was gonna be just fineeeeeeee. *big grin*

Thank you, God! Thank you, Dr Ong! Haha. But still, it wasn't pleasant at first. *sulks*

Oh well. I've got a title now. I'm gonna work hard to keep it, and to secure an A!! Hopefully. ^^

Wake Me Up When September Ends.

Somehow this Green Day's song has finally meant something to me already. Haha. Before, there was never a reason why would I be anticipating for September to end.

But right now, I can't wait for the 30th to comeeeeeeeeeee. Oh c'mon already!

It isn't like I have anymore of assignments or such to work on anymore. I have been just sitting around since like a month or more already!! I've had enough!!

Can you imagine reading news from The Star online to New Straits Times online to New York Times online?! Gosh!! I've never seen myself more interested in the sadness of the world. Not like I wanted to anyway. I even know news from the Tuol Sleng! *sobz*

Still, I guess the worst part of all news would be the political state in Malaysia! Satu Malaysia!! Malaysia setentunya boleh! :P

Please kindly wake me up only when September ends. Three more days to go, counting down. ;)

I've so much to do! So many plans to be initiated! Weeeee~~

*p/s: Sorry for the lack of updates. Will do it soon. Be prepared to see lotsa backdated posts *winks* Cheers, people. Off for now. :)

Admittedly Angry Over Unworthy Stuffs.

I'm angry. Why is it my fault? What have you said so unfairly to make people think that you are innocent and it is my fault to cause these situations to happen?

I really don't understand. Have I done wrong avoiding myself when I don't feel invited? When I don't feel welcomed? I don't blame you for putting on a show with your expressions when you see me or any other time at all. It's your face. But I won't avoid from admitting that I don't like it. You have the freedom to frown and be rude, but I also have the freedom to stay clear of what I despise seeing. And to be frank, I'm glad I'm off radar.

At first, I was stupid enough to feel uneasy thinking what could you have said. Thank God it didn't last long. Cause then again, you know what. I don't even care. I can't always be bothered of what you think and to worry of what you'd say to people. Even though that it's not true.

I'm still glad I made the right move, the right choice. Having done all that in my part did not mean I was being offensive, I was merely saving my own butt. I certainly ain't gonna engage in any arguments or anything of that such with any of you. It just isn't worthy. :) I've learnt better than to do that. So don't try to overdo anything at all.

Bottomline, I'm happy with the way and the direction my life is leading to now. You don't make a difference. Praise to the Lord. Peace out!

Go Away, Whatever-You-Are!!

You're making me ache all day, all night. The pain you're causing me! Heck! If only I know what you are, it'll be easier then to counter-attack you.

At first, I totally thought it was just an ulcer. An ulcer grown at a very, very, very wrong spot. And so I thought it would go away pretty soon. Well, ulcer do go away eventually in like, a couple of days, right? Well, at least based on experience, mine did most of the time. The longest it took was probably just 4 days (I guess?). Hehe.

But it's been almost two weeks. So why is it still here?!

I did suspect that it wasn't ulcer after a week actually, so I did what I didn't dare to do before (cause it hurt alot, understand? *sobz*). I used my finger to inspect on the "crime-scene". The crime: hurting Elaine. The scene: gap between the wisdom tooth and upper jaw.

As I reckoned, it truly was a swell. But whyyyyyyyy? =( It hurts alot! I can't open my mouth bigger than an inch (or lesser). I can't open my mouth to feed myself like normal. Worse of all, I can't chew! Even drinking water hurts. Oh, not to mention my saliva! *wails!*

I'm taking my medicines now. And even that hurts. It still ain't subsiding. Help!!

Damn you, wisdom tooth! I know you're the cause. So said my docs too! I hate you. But I'm too phobic to get rid of you. Haha. Oh, the dilemma.

Slow Connection.

I hate it when the internet is running so slowly. Why can't my browser just load faster? Okay, maybe not faster cause that'd be too much to ask for. But why can't it at least run like it used to.
Just load it okay?! Just don't waste my time!

I've waited for almost half an hour for this page to load. Some minutes though some pages would actually load faster than the one I REALLY wanna log in to. How much dumber could it be?!

I'm getting so pissed off now. It's okay if you didn't realize the time you spend just waiting in front of the computer. But that'll be another story once you realized that you've spent all your precious time doing nothing and just waiting. It just got me a frigging headache. Gosh~!

So much for relaxing myself with some games online. I couldn't even get this one thing done! Grrr~~!!
And yes! It's still loading.....
Yoh~! Faster larhhhhhhh~~!!!

A Week It Lasts...With Wolverine!

It had been quite a stressful week. I guess the worst of it all was missing a quiz I had never intended to miss. It got me so pissed off, I was eff-ed up that I couldn't even utter a word about it, not to mention blogging. So am I glad it's over? I'm still not quite sure. Probably I do still wish that I never had to miss out on that quiz, given that I have done almost everything and it shouldn't have had happened. Oh, well.

Finally finished all my midterms. But it's already time to start studying for my finals. How great is that. How fun is that. =.="
Two more assignments to go. Final touches on the Mastermind game and reports for both assignments and I'm off the hook.

On the lighter side, X-Men Origins: Wolverine is out! And because my midterms are all finished, I guess it does give me a reason to relax a little and celebrate just a little. :)


It was such an awesome movie! Not gonna speak of its synopsis, cause it will be a spoiler. Hehe. Buuutttt, if you insist, read it here. *winks*

I do have this to say though. It's an AWESOME movie! And you so got to watch it in the cinema, for only in the cinema would you get the superb effect. Unless of course you have a 40-over-inch plasma TV with a super duper bang bang boom surround sound system at home, then please say home and watch it in full HD!! [You may invite us as well. *grins*]

I wouldn't mind watching it again. Though I do prefer if there's another ending to it. A happier ending perhaps? One where the two persons in love could be together, or at the very least remembered. Or one where the cute Ryan Reynolds does not have to be the human Frankenstein! *Sobz~*


What a waste of a good character. You have got to see his samurai skills! Haha. Awesome, baby!!
And there's also the Will.I.Am! I got a shock seeing his name at the beginning of the movie. I thought he only sings, never ever crossed my mind he could be a jumper. Cool, man! Hehe.

Hugh Jackman is goooooooood. Period. Watch it. Period.
Night night! *Lights off*

Oh, wait. I have GOT to say this. Watch closely at the beginning of the movie. You might see some scenes from other movies. Perhaps Saving Private Ryan? Ahakz~


You'll know I'm right~ Good night, Blobs!

The Feeling Of Being Afraid.

Yes, I'm afraid. Of what? Of running out of time.
And having to rely on the speed of how others would work. The worst of it all, having to rely on the decision that how the person in particular would make.

I hate this. I hate having to wait on others, having to depend on what others felt like deciding. Especially when I'm running out of time, I hate this!!!
I can't just sit here and wait. But what else can I do?! I'm freaking out. I freaked out, yes. And now I am freaking out AGAIN.

There's noone who can help. Not even myself at this point, except to stay confident and hopeful.
But where can confidence and hope bring me? I'd love to believe I'll go far with just that. However, part of me still is sober enough to realize that I can't just live on those. But how?!
I'm freaking out AGAIN. Gosh~!

I think I'm gonna sedatives soon if this doesn't get settled and go away.

H-E-L-P!!! *sobz*

My Ranting Spot.

My friends said, when you post something on your blog, it's for the world to see, to read and to judge.

For me, my blog is MY ranting spot. I rant what I want. I'd say what I like. Up to certain limits in life, I have my own considerations. Therefore, I wouldn't disagree to say that it's pretty sad to have to control yourself at times when you're reaching to burst out of your patience.

I probably ain't the best metaphoric-person around nor do I intend to be one, but that doesn't mean it's a deciphering game in my blog. I used to have this friend who would read and come to me and tell me about the way I write. How obvious I tell to the world of my problems. That made me wanted to switch to WordPress, in which I could set password to some private blogposts and publicised only the happy ones. Seriously, c'mon. It's pretty ridiculous to come to think of it.

Of course, I cannot deny that I do still stop myself from publishing some posts that I think is just not up for the world. Like I said, I have my own considerations. However, I believe one day, my patience will run low and that's when someone will get a dedication and the world would know. [Haha.] But till then, I'll still try to keep it in.

And when that day comes, I don't mind people reading, that's why I posted it up. I don't mind people commenting, positively or negatively towards me, I'll be ready for it. I don't mind people judging, cause I know nobody wouldn't.

I know of people who would read my blog and talk about it behind my back [technically, though I came to know of it later on]. I really don't mind people gossiping or judging, for that matter. But try to be reasonable and just. It's very unfair to misjudge what I write and very unfair to stop me from writing what I intend to.

Reason for this post. Nothing. Just finding things to rant about since I couldn't rant about what I want. =)

I Hate Spiders.

I hate! I hate! Yes, I hate hate hate. I frigging hate SPIDERS!!!

'nuff said.

So why does one have to frigging appear right in front of me?!?! One BIG one, mind you.
I've always resented seeing those small ones at home. You know those that would scramble around and just disturb your peaceful life? Ones that you just HAD to crush with something, fearing that if you don't, it'll come around again one moment later. And surely I don't want that to ever happen.
Not that I enjoy crushing it anyway. I just had to.

And today is just another day when the spiders have to disturb me. =(
We were both happily watching a movie after lunch at home, and that's when I thought I saw something crawled on the wall very quickly. I told him and he said nothing. Then, he looked again....

Waaaa!! He tried to kill it but it went away before he could. He told me it went out of the window. [Trying to cheat me to assure me it's safe.] Of course, I don't believe him! His window is sealed with the mosquitoe net!
So, he promised to overturn his room just to make me see that there's nomore spider around.

And boy was he wrong! When he pulled out a sheet from under his bedframe, this stupig BIG FAT spider practically jumped straight right up at him and scrambled along beside me.
Naturally, I screamed. Unnaturally, I cried. Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!

I hate, hate, hate, hate, I hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee SPIDERS!!

So, anyway, the spider slid into his cousin's room. Now, he's telling me that they both had killed the spider. Barbequed it as a matter of fact. [With the mosquitoe-squat that runs on battery. Know?]

Should I fear that there's no second one? I'm still terrified!!

Too Tired To Sleep.

...erm, not quite~~~

I totally slept like a pig since afternoon. A whole 4 hours of sleep. And yes, it felt like ages since I last did that. I haven't even been sleeping so well in my night sleep [applied to only the past week.]. I even skipped my lunch for this long-awaited sleep! Haha~

One could really sleep better when you're feeling just, not care-free like totally, but at least when you're not that tensed up. During the past week, I really had so much in my mind and suddenly it felt like the whole world's coming onto me all at once. That everything's that had been on the in-tray are all due to be submitted onto the out-tray, like ASAP. All in a week. So much work, so little time!!

Well, what I did was take things one at a time. And boy, was it hard! It felt so much easier when I told others this. No matter how much I told myself to go step by step, the image of the path ahead just kept pushing it's way into my mind. Especially when I am about to sleep, or worse, when I'm in sleep!!
All the troubles needing solutions. All the datelines I have to meet. I just hate to be awake anyhow.

For now. Somehow I felt like a few tonnes of load off my shoulder for a little while. At least I'm able to rest a LITTLE while before the next sleepless week to come. Wish me luck~

Righty~ Off to stuffing myself with food now. And it's my favourite too.
....SUSHI~!!! Ah, Sushi King will do just fine this time. And it's on promotion~! Double the fun. ^^ Ciaoz~!

Wisely In Pain.

I'm having a terrible, terrible sorethroat right at the moment. I have never been so freaked out by anything like this before. But seriously this time, I'm out of my own skin.

I finished my Semicond test this morning and after classes I came back and took a little cat-nap. We were supposed to have gone for a jog later in the evening. Sadly, upon waking up, I felt like I'm dying or some sort. [Okay dying is probably too big a word.] But seriously the soreness is so well spread out through the whole body. Still the worst is in the throat.

How bad is it? It is this bad.
Usually I would avoid seeking for a doctor for any small matters like a sorethroat, fever or even flu. Or at least I would drag and drag until I finally recover, until there is no more reason for me to seek one. I just don't like going to the doctor's.
This time around, I'm suggesting it myself to visit a doctor, ANY doctor at all. And it must be done ASAP.
It IS that bad! Sigh~ God, save me.

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Updated 19th March.

Just as suspected. Doctor said it is caused by my dumb wisdom-tooth. Not so wise afterall huh. I got some infection in the throat and the pain is more to the both sides of the ear rather than in the throat. Can it get any weirder?
Bottomline, it hurts whenever I try to swallow anything. I'm pretty bummed up wondering why all of a sudden I'm having so much of saliva! Damn! All the more swallowing to be done.
Worse of it all, I had a terrible fever and it freaked him out. =p

Went for my appointment at the dentist this morning, supposedly for MOS. But the dentist said I'm not pretty well in a condition to do the extraction as it might cause further infection. Situation may just get worse.
I'm actually a lil relieved hearing her said that. I'm just scared having to do the operation again. Still it had to be done.
The dentist said my throat infection is not caused by the wisdom tooth. My throat's all red, but just not caused by the wisdom tooth.
So, now the question is, who to trust? =p

Was It The Right Or The Wrong One?

Saying goodbye to my Sister, she saw me off at the Starline LRT station at Plaza Rakyat. And so my journey home began, alone.

Upon reaching the station, the very moment I got there, a train came by. I thought I was really lucky. Absentmindedly, I gladly boarded the train without any more thoughts. Only after a few stations later, that was when I realize I could have boarded the wrong train. This train could be the one not taking me to my destination but just right the opposite way. I did some stupid things and I was too mum to ask anyone.

I jumped right out of the train when it reaches the Chan Sow Lin station, the station where you are supposed to switch trains of different lines [The Ampang Line or the Sri Petaling Line]. Initially I was supposed to check if the train that I'm boarding is the right one when I get down at the station. If it is the right one, I'll quickly get back on board and if it isn't, I shall wait for the right one to come.
That was the plan.

However, seeing the train running on the wrong track [at least that was what I thought], I just quickly and calmly got down and stood facing the opposite track, waiting. I never bothered to check the LCD plane.

I just stood there waiting, and see trains after trains just going by but not on the direction I was waiting to see. Yet, I still never bothered to check the LCD plane.
I just told myself that probably at almost 5pm, it is the peak hour when everyone is getting off from work. So that's why the Ampang Line trains are passing by more frequently right now, the same thing would happen to the Sri Petaling ones later on. Just wait.
So, I stood there just waiting, with my mind so absent thinking about some things I should not be thinking.

A girl came by suddenly and asked me where is she supposed to expect the Sri Petaling Line train coming. I gladly told her to wait at the wrong track with me.
It was only a few seconds later then that it struck me that I forgot to check, and I looked at the plane.

It took me after missing four trains to finally realize that I had all along been waiting at the wrong track. FOUR trains, for hell's sake. And because of me missing that four trains, I missed the ERL train and had to wait for the next one to come after 20 minutes.

Brings me back to the question, was the very first train I boarded the right or the wrong one?
Now, I'll never know. All I know is that I've wasted 20 minutes of my life. All of it happened just because I rushed into boarding the very first train that come along, without any considerations in mind. Then I made another mistake accepting what I think to be true, without any effort to prove it.
How wrong more can I go?

Is this how it's supposed to be? Is that why I'm in such a situation that I am right now?

Last One Out.

Here we go now. My last blog post of the year, so I really don't wanna be filling it with rant or curse or whatsoever of the sort. But hey, proves my life is full of shits. And shits do happen, right? So be it.
Because no matter what, it had to be so-called "endured" and as the positive ones would say, "Take it as another challenge from God".

I wonder to what extent of an optimistic that I am.
Am I a person who faces a "challenge" in life and smiles and says, "Oh yes God, I'm enjoying this. Gimme more!"? [Bah~ That would be so unrealistic.]
So, am I a person who when given a "challenge", finds hard for the reason of it happening and laughs on hard when I found one possible reason and then overcomes it [if it is overcome-able] and then takes pride on it and then, and then.....? [Bah~ That would be so self-fool.]
Well, if that's the case, I guess I'm never the optimistic one. Because it's a lie to say optimism has never disappoint me. But one thing for sure, it had never bluffed me. Because when it doesn't work, it doesn't work. So, I guess it's a good thing (?). [*ding* One point for optimism.]

Bah~ If this is how it's gonna be. Praise to the Gods up there. Praise to the fools down here. May the year ahead be full of optimism, and if luck abides you to it, may it be empty of disappointment.

To the optimistic ones out there, have a great time overcoming your "challenges". I mean it.
To the pessimist, have a great time hiding yourself from your "challenges".
To the ones like me, let's have a swell [pun intended] being in the way just how we are. Bah~

Happy New Year! *winks*

Additional Frustration!

Oh shit!
No, wait... The "shit" word is very sensitive right at the moment.
Very, very sensitive. =(

It was supposed to be a great weekend. A weekend without stress or books. But life just had to be imperfect. Hence, imperfection is accompanied by....crap. *blergh!*

It all started on one beautiful Saturday morning. Waking up and getting ready to bathe, I went into the bathroom and saw something I don't wanna see.
It's invading both the bathrooms! Oh, God!!
Tried cleaning it up, just kept spraying water like mad. You can never expect me to step in any further, except to spray it away from far.
Right after, thinking it was okay to bathe, the sinkhole was practically burping with every drop of water flowing into it. I ran away as fast as I could. You bet I did. Anybody can bathe anywhere else at that moment!

Sadly, for the shock of my day, I got a call from Kelmynn later in the afternoon. Her room had been invaded!! And her stuffs are practically 'conquered'. Brrr... Conquered and dirtied.
You see, you'll never be able to understand the teruk-ness of the situation until you are in that situation. Don't you agree so? Well, I couldn't agree more on that statement. Being away at that moment, I didn't think it was very very bad. I just thought it was...well, just bad. Poor Karen had to clean the whole room.
Used up 5 hours, she said.
Even after the 5 hours of her hard work, the house still stinks. Good Lord. It seriously felt like we are in some kind of a sewage. *blergh*
And so, we ran off to our friend's house for the night.

But for the shock of all shocks, our house is totally flooded the next morning!! Gahhhhhhh!!!
My my my, now it even looked like a sewage!! *double blergh*
How could we ever stay in that house ever again?! Imagine how disgusted we were, imagine how frustrated we were too. Now we have to pack and clear everything we ever want to save from that dirty, smelly house.
Some stuffs of mine are soaking wet, and I could never had been ever bothered to check what it is. Because no matter how important it is, I don't think I can ever save or keep them anymore. I don't care and I just kept shoving them all into the garbage bag. It's not soaking wet of clean water, note that. Yucks. *shivers*

It's been a long, tiring night. And being in that kinda atmosphere packing really can kill. Imagine how intoxicated we are by now. Haha.
Time to rest. Toodles. =(

Some Frustration.

I have only two midterm tests this week and I already am feeling so choked up. If you'd compare it to Yamunah's four-tests marathon, having only two of it isn't quite as stressful. Yet, I guess I just am not in the mood for exams.
But hell no if you'd say I don't study.
Maybe it ain't as hard as for finals, but still I made sure I go through everything
[at least least least once].

I especially hate it when the lecturer would go around telling you that the midterm paper is gonna be an easy-peasy one. Pantang!
Because you'd know the pressure is then higher than before, knowingly that if you don't score this, it'll be such a waste. Also, whatever the lecturer said that was supposedly to be easy is NEVER easy! Bah~

Tonight's midterm paper was one of that kind. Right after the test, I felt as shitty as I did back when I took the Electronics 3 paper. You bet it right. It was crappy.
To be frank, I am not very much worried about what my results would come out to be. Rather, I was feeling very down for I have studied and know what was going on in this subject [and I like it!].
But as I was writing down my answers, I find myself having lots of doubts. Not pretty sure of what I should write, I start to wonder. Do I not understand? Or do I not remember? *sighs*
I guess I just don't squeeze my poor brain enough through the test. I just never gave enough effort to think. I was so tired and my whole body was as if it was gonna breakdown on me any second then.
I felt even worse after passing the paper up, and listening to the rest discussing. Pretty normal routine. =_=
Listening to all the possible solutions/answers, it came to me that I know them all [whatever they were discussing]. So why didn't I write them down?! Daym~ *sighs*

I was told I am really lucky, for there are fireworks to be enjoyed right after my test. It was the Malaysia International Fireworks Competition in Putrajaya. Today's would be the third show for this year.
Non-doubtfully, today's fireworks from Canada is superb. Of course, minus the polluted sky. It was so beautiful with all the special ones blasted off to the sky. I especially loved the colourful ones and those swirling ones.
[No photos/vids taken today as my phone was running low on battery.]
Sadly enough though, I just don't seem to be able to enjoy it the way I would usually be. My mind had stopped thinking about the test, no lie.
Yet, the fireworks just seemed so alien tonight. Just some kinda light bursting up in the sky, and that was that.
There was the occasional "wow, cool", but that was it. *sighs*
Sad. I know. Maybe I was just not appreciative enough tonight. Pardon that. =)

Anyhow, come the end of the day, life goes on. Disappointment is just another fact of life I have to endure. Just like the fireworks in the sky, it wouldn't last long. Not if I don't learn to let go. And I'm just too sure that something else would come along, either to cover up for this disappointment or to add on to it.
Life's too short to linger on that one small disappointment in life. =)


p/s:
Apparently, today is the 20082008 day. Beautiful numbers, ain't it?
For me, it was a beautiful day as well. Surely, minus the sad story.
Instead, focus on just the good things in life.
Thank you for being my company. *winks*

Malaysia's Olympics Gold Medal.

...down the drain. *sighs*
Blame him not though. Blame it all on the pressure that Malaysia has put on him.
Can you imagine a man having to carry the hope of a whole 25 million population of Malaysia?
Can you imagine a man having to fight with the world's best with all that pressure on both shoulders?
Brrr.. If it was me, I would have collapsed even before the match even started. Haha. Thus, compare me not.

But then again, the match was a very disappointing one at many points.
I did expect to see a tough competition from Lee Chong Wei though, giving Lin Dan a hard time to take on the winning match. But by the second set, when Malaysia was losing by 11-1, I knew the game was going to be a real frustrating one for all Malaysians. As a matter of fact, it was quite embarrassing.
Was skill at stake then?

Disappointingly, I believe luck wasn't quite on Malaysia's side tonight.
Every net-ball hit was unable to go past the net. Or when it did actually went over the net, it is always successfully counteracted by China.
Everytime Lee Chong Wei smacks the shuttlecock, my heart skips a beat.
Purely due to the fact that every smack he made, Lin Dan could just easily hit back [without making much movement], leading Lee CW running around the court like a lost chicken. Alright, so the term 'lost chicken' was wrongly used. Haha. Pardon me. =p
But seriously, don't you agree that Lin Dan seemed so comfortable and didn't quite use much effort to defeat Lee CW tonight? *sighs*

I bet the whole of Malaysia can seriously see the amount of stress and pressure Lee CW had straight on his face. Seeing his performance tonight had clearly shown us how he suffered. *sulks* So sad. I believe he would have played much better had he not kept thinking of the RM1million he would be receiving had he gotten the Gold medal. Haha. [For those blur enough, it was meant to be a joke. =.=]

So, I guess that marks the end of Olympics 2008 for Malaysia. Though we may not have had gotten a Gold, we can always make do with the Silver medal. Ahakz.
Seriously, it's better than nothing. Right? *winks*
At last, something to be proud of [despite the quite-embarrassing lost].

Malaysia Boleh! Ahakz~

Early Return.

Well, I'm back in Cyberjaya since yesterday. Followed Juin Hau and the rest. I would usually only return from my holiday in Penang on the very last day, so returning so early this time really felt...weird. Haha.
I really did consider taking the bus back only on Sunday, but c'mon. I think I am more rational than that. =p

At first I thought I would be studying for my upcoming tests since I'm back so early, but turn out I have taken a frigging looooooooong sweet time to clean up. Then again, it is my habit to work slowly, cleaning bit by bit, here and there. I've finally gotten the vacuum cleaner from Juin Hau, but have yet to plug it in and start working.
My room is so dusty by now that if I don't do it by today, somebody will. Brrr...

Oh and by the way, gotta take this opportunity to congratulate all graduating seniors. Happy Graduation, everybody! =D
Slowly anticipating to the day when it is my turn. ^^ Haha.

Curse Of The Tummy Mummy.

Okay, fine. So I'm being lame with the post title, sue me. =P

But my stomach ain't being all merciful on me by the second anyway.
I'm starting to wonder why. Why is it always that my [supposedly] gastric pain only attacks when I am coming home to Penang? And it never subside until days after. Grrr...
Even worse, the after-effects will linger for as long as they can. Double grrr...

Sometimes I think I know the reason to this stomach problem and tried to prevent it, but sometimes I doubt if I really know. Bottomline though, it is better off when I am hungry than I am full.
Haha. I know, I know. Wrong perception of mine, but pardon me. When you are going through what I am experiencing now, you probably would agree with me too. Understand the term 'indigestion' okie?

Gahhh. Enough of rants. Gotta rest, gotta rest!~ =)