Thursday, April 30, 2009

A Week It Lasts...With Wolverine!

It had been quite a stressful week. I guess the worst of it all was missing a quiz I had never intended to miss. It got me so pissed off, I was eff-ed up that I couldn't even utter a word about it, not to mention blogging. So am I glad it's over? I'm still not quite sure. Probably I do still wish that I never had to miss out on that quiz, given that I have done almost everything and it shouldn't have had happened. Oh, well.

Finally finished all my midterms. But it's already time to start studying for my finals. How great is that. How fun is that. =.="
Two more assignments to go. Final touches on the Mastermind game and reports for both assignments and I'm off the hook.

On the lighter side, X-Men Origins: Wolverine is out! And because my midterms are all finished, I guess it does give me a reason to relax a little and celebrate just a little. :)


It was such an awesome movie! Not gonna speak of its synopsis, cause it will be a spoiler. Hehe. Buuutttt, if you insist, read it here. *winks*

I do have this to say though. It's an AWESOME movie! And you so got to watch it in the cinema, for only in the cinema would you get the superb effect. Unless of course you have a 40-over-inch plasma TV with a super duper bang bang boom surround sound system at home, then please say home and watch it in full HD!! [You may invite us as well. *grins*]

I wouldn't mind watching it again. Though I do prefer if there's another ending to it. A happier ending perhaps? One where the two persons in love could be together, or at the very least remembered. Or one where the cute Ryan Reynolds does not have to be the human Frankenstein! *Sobz~*


What a waste of a good character. You have got to see his samurai skills! Haha. Awesome, baby!!
And there's also the Will.I.Am! I got a shock seeing his name at the beginning of the movie. I thought he only sings, never ever crossed my mind he could be a jumper. Cool, man! Hehe.

Hugh Jackman is goooooooood. Period. Watch it. Period.
Night night! *Lights off*

Oh, wait. I have GOT to say this. Watch closely at the beginning of the movie. You might see some scenes from other movies. Perhaps Saving Private Ryan? Ahakz~


You'll know I'm right~ Good night, Blobs!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I Don't Mind Forwards.

There are over a hundred unread emails in my Hotmail-box again. Since I'm really pissed right now and have practically no mood to do anything in mind, I've decided to read them.
I love forwarded mails. Though some could be quite irritating, especially those disguising to be some sorta chain mails or some charity mails, but some others are quite interesting and informative. I especially love those meaningful ones.

Today, I found another mail that caught my heart. It's about this short movie clip which won some Berlin's Award. And the title of the clip is called Chicken A-la Carte.

At first, the whole clip may seem to be a little irrelevant, but please keep watching. It's worth your few minutes. And maybe at the end of it, you'll appreciate your chicken meat more now. :)


Appreciate whatever you have. Don't waste. Did you see the smile and laughter on those children? :)

I know some brats out there would think that, "If I don't waste, where would they get food then."
All I can say is..... May God bless you. =_____="

Monday, April 27, 2009

The Feeling Of Being Afraid.

Yes, I'm afraid. Of what? Of running out of time.
And having to rely on the speed of how others would work. The worst of it all, having to rely on the decision that how the person in particular would make.

I hate this. I hate having to wait on others, having to depend on what others felt like deciding. Especially when I'm running out of time, I hate this!!!
I can't just sit here and wait. But what else can I do?! I'm freaking out. I freaked out, yes. And now I am freaking out AGAIN.

There's noone who can help. Not even myself at this point, except to stay confident and hopeful.
But where can confidence and hope bring me? I'd love to believe I'll go far with just that. However, part of me still is sober enough to realize that I can't just live on those. But how?!
I'm freaking out AGAIN. Gosh~!

I think I'm gonna sedatives soon if this doesn't get settled and go away.

H-E-L-P!!! *sobz*

Sunday, April 26, 2009

My Ranting Spot.

My friends said, when you post something on your blog, it's for the world to see, to read and to judge.

For me, my blog is MY ranting spot. I rant what I want. I'd say what I like. Up to certain limits in life, I have
my own considerations. Therefore, I wouldn't disagree to say that it's pretty sad to have to control yourself at times when you're reaching to burst out of your patience.

I probably ain't the best metaphoric-person around nor do I intend to be one, but that doesn't mean it's a deciphering game in my blog. I used to have this friend who would read and come to me and tell me about the way I write. How obvious I tell to the world of my problems. That made me wanted to switch to WordPress, in which I could set password to some private blogposts and publicised only the happy ones. Seriously, c'mon. It's pretty ridiculous to come to think of it.

Of course, I cannot deny that I do still stop myself from publishing some posts that I think is just not up for the world. Like I said, I have my own considerations. However, I believe one day, my patience will run low and that's when someone will get a dedication and the world would know. [Haha.] But till then, I'll still try to keep it in.

And when that day comes, I don't mind people reading, that's why I posted it up. I don't mind people commenting, positively or negatively towards me, I'll be ready for it. I don't mind people judging, cause I know nobody wouldn't.

I know of people who would read my blog and talk about it behind my back [technically, though I came to know of it later on]. I really don't mind people gossiping or judging, for that matter. But try to be reasonable and just. It's very unfair to misjudge what I write and very unfair to stop me from writing what I intend to.

Reason for this post. Nothing. Just finding things to rant about since I couldn't rant about what I want. =)

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

*Long Overdue* Sushi Dinner.

Okay, so this is long overdue. Until I almost forgot I wanted to post this up. Better late than never.
*Warning: More overdue posts coming up. ;)*

Dated: 14 March 2009.
Just another Saturday afternoon in Cyberia, bored and lazy. So, the four of us (eLaiNe, Chee Wei, Yamunah and Soon Ming) headed to Alamanda for lunch and window-shopped in Cold Storage after. Like I said, it was a boring and lazy-fying Saturday afternoon. But I don't know what exactly came over us that we suddenly decide to play masak-masak for dinner.
Japanese will be our theme for the night. Reason being that I have this sushi set thingy that I bought awhile back wanting to make some sushi, but got no sushi rice. Haha! Second reason is that Soon Ming is a Japanese fanatic. ;)

Having this plan in mind, we skipped our ooh-and-ahhs session in Cold Storage and rushed to Carrefour to get our ingredients. Got home. Rest for a coupla minutes or an hour or so, and off we go. Cooking time!

Started with preparing the ingredients, and yes my house's kitchen is messy and crowded with the four of us walking up and down, not knowing what to do first. Real noobsters. =p



This is our favourite 'okonomiyaki'. Top with the sauces and bonito flakes (or 'katsuobushi'). ^^ Yummy. I don't wanna brag, but hell yeah, our 'okonomiyaki' is wayyyyyyy better than Sushi King's!!! *pfffffttttt*



Then there's tempura. Fried vegetables and fried crabmeat-sticks. Oily. *yikes*


Part of the main dish - sushi. My task. I don't even know why I'm on this task! I know no nuts about this, although I may have fooled around with making sushi back in high school. Hahaha! Don't even remind me!
So, anyway...It didn't turn out too bad afterall.

It took us almost 3 hours to prepare this dinner! Worthwhile though. :)



We are all so beat up by the end of it. It took us another hour or so just to clean the whole place up!!!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

I Hate Spiders.

I hate! I hate! Yes, I hate hate hate. I frigging hate SPIDERS!!!

'nuff said.

So why does one have to frigging appear right in front of me?!?! One BIG one, mind you.
I've always resented seeing those small ones at home. You know those that would scramble around and just disturb your peaceful life? Ones that you just HAD to crush with something, fearing that if you don't, it'll come around again one moment later. And surely I don't want that to ever happen.
Not that I enjoy crushing it anyway. I just had to.

And today is just another day when the spiders have to disturb me. =(
We were both happily watching a movie after lunch at home, and that's when I thought I saw something crawled on the wall very quickly. I told him and he said nothing. Then, he looked again....

Waaaa!! He tried to kill it but it went away before he could. He told me it went out of the window. [Trying to cheat me to assure me it's safe.] Of course, I don't believe him! His window is sealed with the mosquitoe net!
So, he promised to overturn his room just to make me see that there's nomore spider around.

And boy was he wrong! When he pulled out a sheet from under his bedframe, this stupig BIG FAT spider practically jumped straight right up at him and scrambled along beside me.
Naturally, I screamed. Unnaturally, I cried. Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!

I hate, hate, hate, hate, I hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee SPIDERS!!

So, anyway, the spider slid into his cousin's room. Now, he's telling me that they both had killed the spider. Barbequed it as a matter of fact. [With the mosquitoe-squat that runs on battery. Know?]

Should I fear that there's no second one? I'm still terrified!!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Proud Of Proton.

*blushes* I know, I know. A LIL hard to believe. But hell yeah, I'm so proud of Proton right now.


I admit I did have a LIL influence from him to watch this speech from Dato Syed Zainal during the launch of Proton Exora the other day. We missed it then as we have no access to the TV, remember? =.=" [Well, not like it mattered to me then. Shhh.]

So, anyway, this favourite website of his posted it up, and I'm kinda attracted to watch along. Daym~ This MD could really present ALMOST like the Steve Jobs from Apple. [Alright, another influence from him.]
Seriously, you should visit paultan.org for this one. As a Malaysian, do not [I repeat DO NOT] miss this launching. ^^

Along the speech, I'd have to say we gotta give him for admitting the problems with Proton cars and how they came to overcome it. And also about how to meet Malaysians requirements in cars.

European technology, Japanese design, Malaysian price.

Pheewittt~~
Typical, typical of Malaysians. Haha.
But, you see. That's what makes your products sell. You gotta know your market well, know their needs and meet them.
Haha. I'm still very surprised to hear it when he said Proton included the '
teh tarik' packet holder in the car. [Okay, that wasn't his exact words, but still...=p]

[Cool, eh? Bet all you out there had wished for something like that before. I know my Mom sure had!]

At the end of the speech, he thanked Tun Mahathir who is the founder of Proton. And yes, I'm proud of him too. Super proud! =p
And there's our new Prime Minister sitting next to Tun. ^^

[And there's alot of stupig and funny comments I told Chee Wei along the speech, which of course I won't be saying it here. Pfffft~~~]

All in all. I gotta say this too. GOOD JOB, PROTON!

Imagine being in the team who have brought this to life and reality. My Momma's gonna be so proud of me and point to every Exora on the road saying, "My daughter designed that!"
ROFLMAO!

The Prestige.

Aha~ Watched another movie for the night. All because he could not be in the mood for anything. Poor thing. Why can't some people just stop adding worries onto his mind? And that 'some people' includes one lil fella who just won't understand. Bah~
Whatever it is, back to our topic. :)

After almost THREE years, I finally turn it on.

The Prestige.

Cool movie, although we did take quite some time putting it on pause just to figure some of the things out at the first few minutes. Somehow, I couldn't differentiate the Dark Knight from the Wolverine at first. =p
So, I had a little problem figuring what is and what's not. Even now I'm still buffed from what is and what's not.

More terrifying is the fact that Angier finally didn't mind getting his hands dirty. And I super hate that. I don't understand how could he just drown each of his duplicates and still keep them?! [Whoops. Spoiler alert. Whoops. Too late. =p]
And I super respect Borden. Or erm, Fallon. [Whoops. Another spoiler alert. Whoops. Late again. =p] Total devotion. :) Very terrifying indeed too! Tsk tsk~

Gosh. Does hatred really blinds so badly until you would just do anything to get back at that person until you finally forget what you were really hating him for? I guess I gotta be extra careful from now on. I don't hate nobody, don't worry. Hate is a very strong word. ;)

Obsession versus total devotion to his art. A lot of sacrifice. [Poor Sarah. *sobz*]

Are you watching closely? *winks*

Friday, April 17, 2009

Movies Movies Movies.

I love movies. And they're basically the best companion at times when you need a little escape.
For the past week, the hectic days and stress were really piling and stomping me down. Yet, I just can't work in pure silence. As usual I would turn on some songs, or even any shows. Just for the sake of some noise.

So, anyway. I just wanna blog about the three movies I've watched over the week [and a few days, I think]. Along which I also watched a couple of Shin Chan movies, and a gazillion re-runs of Kung Fu Panda.
Awww, c'mon. I love the Panda. I especially loved the way it was beautifully drawn with every details so carefully penned down.

Well, now. First movie~

Marley And Me!
[Awww.. Isn't he such a cute little "Clearance Puppy"?]

What I just knew is that "Marley & Me is based on the best-selling autobiographical book by columnist John Grogan". So it's a real story afterall. *winks*

Throughout the movie, there are so many hilarious scenes. I especially laughed at the part when Marley had to lose his balls. And then there's another one when Connor innocently mentioned that his daddy said that Colleen's name is "whoops".
Throughout the movie as well, there were scenes when I did feel a little annoyed with Marley's hyperactive and disobedient character. Still, at the end of day, Marley got my heart.

Just like any other movies, I always look forward to a good ending. And this gave me another good one to remember by.
He may not be any expensive dog, or the most obedient dog in the world. But he is just another member of the family.

In the words of John Grogan,
"
A dog has no use for fancy cars, big homes, or designer clothes. A water log stick will do just fine. A dog doesn't care if your rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb. Give him your heart and he'll give you his. How many people can you say that about? How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special? How many people can make you feel extraordinary?"


Second to go~
Bride Wars!
[Why are they so happy if they're at war?!?!]

At first, I really thought of it to be ridiculous to have a movie like this. But I gave it a go anyhow, since I did kinda run out of movies to watch and I really didn't want to watch something serious just yet.

I just don't understand why they couldn't just have a wedding together, instead of all those fights. How could their friendship since at childhood be so weak just because of a wedding VENUE?!?!?! Gosh!

So anyway I went on to watch it, and hey~ It wasn't that bad afterall. Well, all the fights were quite entertaining, though lame and nonsensical. Remember the scenes when Anne Hathaway got tanned to be a walking safety cone. And Kate Hudson got her hair blue. Bah~

But what really got to me isn't quite their friendship. =___= [Not the thing I expect to see.]
What I saw was the difference of how their fiances stood up for them when they were in a fight. Liv was lucky that her man was there for her when she felt the worst about getting into a fight with her 'best-friend', while Emma was not so lucky.
And it's stupig how she finally got together with Liv's brother. Oh, for God's sake!!!!

Anyway, here's one worth watching. Last one I just finished watching like a few minutes ago~
Slumdog millionaire!
[Mind you, this movie had won 8 Oscars!]

"When somebody asks me a question, I tell them the answer."
That's how it is. Even for me. Only difference was, he's asked the questions that led him to become a millionaire. Hahaha~

Okay, what's no joke is that I would never want to learn of the answers to those questions the way he did. No way. No money could ever ever ever lure me to go through that! No no no no no~~

While watching the movie, we both got a little realistic and thought, "What a coincident". And sweat, not literally. =P
Well, if you really give thoughts to it, you'd question it yourself too wondering "Where got so ngam wan!". But heck, it is that ngam (coincidental) in this movie.
Still, I shut that thought up by saying, "Just watch. Shush!". Typical, typical. Hehe.

All in all, the movie is still a very good one to watch. It really did bring the audience to see the life of a slumdog. So sad.

Though I did expect a better ending with a more catchy line than just......"Kiss me."
Gosh!! Isn't there a better line to it?! How much more gaudy could it get anyway?

Oh oh..and then...and then...what good is a movie from India if it's without a dance, huh? Awww.. *winks*

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Hehe~ Alrighty, that's all for now. Wonder what my next movie gonna be. Oh, there's so many in the list right now. If only I got them. :)
Time to catch some sleep...AGAIN. Nights, everyone~ ;)

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Too Tired To Sleep.

...erm, not quite~~~

I totally slept like a pig since afternoon. A whole 4 hours of sleep. And yes, it felt like ages since I last did that. I haven't even been sleeping so well in my night sleep [applied to only the past week.]. I even skipped my lunch for this long-awaited sleep! Haha~

One could really sleep better when you're feeling just, not care-free like totally, but at least when you're not that tensed up. During the past week, I really had so much in my mind and suddenly it felt like the whole world's coming onto me all at once. That everything's that had been on the in-tray are all due to be submitted onto the out-tray, like ASAP. All in a week. So much work, so little time!!

Well, what I did was take things one at a time. And boy, was it hard! It felt so much easier when I told others this. No matter how much I told myself to go step by step, the image of the path ahead just kept pushing it's way into my mind. Especially when I am about to sleep, or worse, when I'm in sleep!!
All the troubles needing solutions. All the datelines I have to meet. I just hate to be awake anyhow.

For now. Somehow I felt like a few tonnes of load off my shoulder for a little while. At least I'm able to rest a LITTLE while before the next sleepless week to come. Wish me luck~

Righty~ Off to stuffing myself with food now. And it's my favourite too.
....SUSHI~!!! Ah, Sushi King will do just fine this time. And it's on promotion~! Double the fun. ^^ Ciaoz~!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Do You Remember? (Thought 6)

Do you remember the time when someone dear leaves?
Do you remember the pain you felt knowing he/she ain't coming back?
Do you remember praying it was all just a bad dream, and you'll eventually wake up?
Do you remember missing him/her in things you used to do together?

It's nearing 7 years since my grandmother passed away. I only knew 2 of my grandparents since birth, maternal grandmother and paternal grandfather. To me, my Por Por is the one we're closer to and sayang the most. She's the one we could only meet when we balik kampung to Kepong Ulu. Those were the holidays I always look forward to. And at every end of the holidays, I'll weep my way back to Penang. And continue sobbing for the next couple of days.

I used to write to her quite frequently when I was in primary, but it gradually stopped. It didn't mean I loved her any lesser anyway.
I used to be in KL for almost every long school holidays, but that gradually got lesser too. I don't see her often but it also certainly never meant I missed her any lesser.

Is it true that pain dies with time? Is it true that we will eventually forget someone after parting? Why do life seemed so fragile, and death has to be part of it?
Are you really watching us from where you are above there? Do you miss us? Would you come back if I wish hard enough? At least to say our final goodbye?

Por Por, I miss you every now and then. I'll never forget the day when we got the news. I still regret the fact that we never had a chance for our last goodbye. I have so much to ask you, to tell you.
Now all that is left is really the sweet memories of you. I love you.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Do You Remember? (Thought 5)

Do you remember the time when you have the worst nightmare?
Do you remember trying your hardest to wake up, but it was all just in vain?
Do you remember having the tingling knowing that it's all ridiculous to be happening, yet still drawn to believe it?
Do you remember the fear you had inside the dream, and even outside after waking up?

I've been having alot of dreams lately. In one night, I could have 3 different weird dreams. That probably explains why I'm always so tired even after hours and hours of sleep. [That's not an excuse. :P]
Anyway, I had another weird dream yesternight. No, wait. Lemme rephrase that.
I had a weird nightmare yesternight.

Morpheus played this tremendously huge prank on me. And it wasn't the first time. However, at least this time all's well in the dream alas. Though, it is still very very unpleasant.
I remember the first felt so real, it didn't seemed like a dream. It made me so scared even after waking up. I was just a little kid back then fearing for the worst with no one to tell it to. And all I wanted was to make sure everybody is safe and sound. I still do.

When you sleep, you try to escape from the real world. From all the stress, the workloads, the misery, just almost of anything that you wanna runaway from but couldn't in the real life. And that's when you dream. Of course it'd be always wonderful if you dream of beautiful things. But what is life when everything's just perfectly pretty? :)
When you dream, you enter into a mysterious world where rules of reality just don't apply. No matter how hard you try to make sense out of it, it just don't. But somehow you believe it anyhow in your dream, simply because you're in it.

Do dreams mean anything implicitly? If yes, what could they mean? What could be the message tried to be conveyed? Or are dreams just a method of liberating you from the real world for awhile? Then, what about nightmares? What's their purpose? Just to scare you abit more than you can take?

Monday, April 6, 2009

Do You Remember? (Thought 4)

Do you remember the time when your supposed best buddy turns his/her back at you?
Do you remember the time when your best buddy betrays you?
Do you remember the time when you got just so disappointed but am too frustrated to talk about it anymore?
Do you remember losing your best buddy?

I remember vividly, and I really thought it'll never happen again. At least not with this one buddy. The best-buddy. However, I was proven wrong.
It shows how weak a friendship could mean. Maybe you would say, perhaps it wasn't friendship in the first place. Because true friends will never do that to you right? But I really believed in it to be true. At least it was true until now. I hope.

I'm disappointed and I cannot deny that. I'm frustrated and I'll never hide that. I'm angry but it will subside. I'll remember every single moment of this. I'll be more careful from now on.

What could have gone wrong? Do our bond really meant to be that weak and fragile to you? Was I supposed to have seen it coming? Was I supposed to have back-off before it happens?

Still, I thank every true buddies who stuck by me through thick and thin. You know who you are. It wasn't about how big the gesture, it's about how big your heart is. It's purely about how much love you guys showered on me unconditionally. :)

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Do You Remember? (Thought 3)

Do you remember when someone breaks his/her promise to you?
Do you remember anticipating for it only to have it broken?
Do you remember feeling the frustration when that person couldn't even remember what he/she had promised and hence broken?
Do you remember feeling the urge to believe the next promise, yet have the lingering fear?

I remember the empty promises I had been given since young. My parents especially used to do that to me, just for the sake of shutting me up. It didn't really matter much back then. Even if those special trips to amusement parks were never realized or crazily expensive presents were never bought, it didn't matter. It's not because I've forgotten about them. It just didn't matter. Guess I knew it's ridiculous somehow.

As I grew older, I thought promises would be made based on trust. And so I trusted. And anticipated.
The frustration you feel when you finally realize it was forgotten by the other party could just tear you into half. Yes, probably it's a little exaggerated but if you would consider the degree of importance of the promise, you'd think differently.

Did I trust wrongly? Or did I just anticipated for the impossible? Was the promise made just to shut me up? Was it just not important to you as it is to me?

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Do You Remember? (Thought 2)

Do you remember when some days, or maybe dates, were important to you?
Do you remember anticipating for it, hoping that something special would happen on that day?
Do you remember having disappointments when the day finally arrives?
Do you remember when you finally gave up cherishing any special dates?

I was one who anticipates for some special dates and days, on which we could celebrate and remember of together. It doesn't have to be anything fancy, as long as it's memorable. That when you reminisce back in time, you'd never forget how sweet or special that one time is. You'd always want to remember that one time, especially the firsts.
Memories that'll make you smile just thinking of it. Memories that'll make you hold on to this world no matter how harsh it gets. All those sweet memories.

I'm not sure if I've given up cherishing special dates. I don't think I could ever have anyway. But I do stop myself from anticipating anything special. At least I guess I've learnt my lesson not to expect too much. Perhaps so. Perhaps I finally understand one thing I've always wondered about since young.

Are special days just celebrated for the sake of celebrating it? Could these special days go by anyhow without any celebrations? It wouldn't kill anyway, right? So, why does it hurt sometimes? Why is it still loitering around my head agitating me? Will it ever go away?

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Do You Remember? (Thought 1)

Do you remember the day when it's April Fool's Day at least ten years back?
Do you remember the excitement knowing it's the day when playing a prank on others had been seemingly legal?
Do you remember how foolish you felt when you were victimized?
Do you remember laughing and be laughed at?

Ah, I most certainly remember all those moments. Simple days with simple minds. When kids were having fun, just fooling around. When we used to have so much laughs, even at the simplest prank. Oh, the care-free days.

This year, I've not played any prank nor was I prank-ed. It probably ain't the first year this had happened. As a matter of fact, I don't remember anything about it the last year, or the year before, or even the year before.

Sometimes I wondered where did all those times go. Did we grow out of it? Or did we just simply throw it away? Was all the kids' fun too much to handle by the adults? Or was it that we just don't have time to have fun anymore?
Do we even remember what fun really is?