Saturday, April 4, 2009

Do You Remember? (Thought 3)

Do you remember when someone breaks his/her promise to you?
Do you remember anticipating for it only to have it broken?
Do you remember feeling the frustration when that person couldn't even remember what he/she had promised and hence broken?
Do you remember feeling the urge to believe the next promise, yet have the lingering fear?

I remember the empty promises I had been given since young. My parents especially used to do that to me, just for the sake of shutting me up. It didn't really matter much back then. Even if those special trips to amusement parks were never realized or crazily expensive presents were never bought, it didn't matter. It's not because I've forgotten about them. It just didn't matter. Guess I knew it's ridiculous somehow.

As I grew older, I thought promises would be made based on trust. And so I trusted. And anticipated.
The frustration you feel when you finally realize it was forgotten by the other party could just tear you into half. Yes, probably it's a little exaggerated but if you would consider the degree of importance of the promise, you'd think differently.

Did I trust wrongly? Or did I just anticipated for the impossible? Was the promise made just to shut me up? Was it just not important to you as it is to me?

4 comments:

yamunah tangarajah said...
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yamunah tangarajah said...

this i totally can relate to...
my sis use to always do this to me... even now...
she'll come up wit an interesting plan n promise to hang out wit me n when the time comes she'll get dressed n go out wit her frens... it use to always leave me blank to whether the earlier conversation was a dream... i use to get so hurt dat i still don trust her or look forward to spending time wit her... n wat makes it worse is dat she'll beg me to extend my holidays when i'd have to go back already... its true dat u lose ur trust towards em...

KSeong Ang said...

Suddenly make me think of Mahathir's famous phrase, "Orang Melayu Jangan Mudah Lupa"...........=.=

As time goes by, most of the things changed due to circumstances. And things always go against what we have expected...

Sometimes probably you would like to meet up an accident which will make you lose your memory and flush away all those good and bad times..so that we can restart again...but too bad, it won't happen that easy. So we can just try to save the happy moments and push the unwanted memory deeply to the bottom of the stack....

Don't blame me, cuz i am major in computer...:)

between, nice though1-3...got thought 4 a??

eLaiNe said...

Yamunah, exactly. It didn't matter how big that promise is, it's still a promise right. And at least remember la kan~ Whether now or later. I hate it when even you've hinted, they don't remember. Chis~
Don't even expect compensation. Loll.

Ang, I couldn't agree more on the accident part. As foolish as it may sound, I've always thought having an accident so to erase everything and start anew was a good idea. But just in case, what if the good memories go while the bad ones stay? Oh-oh, big trouble. Haha.
Yes, I do have thought 4 to 5 to maybe 6 and 7 coming up. But due to time constraint, might not be that fast just yet. :) Thanks anyway~