Ice Cream Makes Me Happy.

Oooo yes! Just side by side with chocolate, ice cream is my favourite too!

And being able to savour them in a happy mood like this adds the sweetness in every mouthful of it. Mmm mmmm~~~

It was on promotion. Supposed we wanted to eat the 2 scoops for RM15, but we didn't realize it was for takeout orders only. Sitting down, we finally realized we got 'conned' by our excitement without reading properly the finely printed words. *ahakz*
So anyway, I guess that's the other way of God showing us the better deal?


With every purchase of RM20 and above in a single receipt, we are entitled to purchase a whole pint for only RM25! *slurps*


Oooo I lurve lurve lurve Haagen Dazs' ice cream. Slurp~~
Now imagine having chocolate ice-cream!!! Double-joy~

Speaking of chocolate, just when I was really blue last week, thanks Kelmynn and Gkai for providing me the 'ecstasy' in the form of chocolates! I'm a lil bit too heavyhearted to gobble those chocs down my throat though. =p

Cloudy Skies.

The weather is pretty comforting for the past few days. Things had got better since Monday and the clouds have never left me. Even if lightning strikes and thunder roars now, it's okay.
But it's really the weather and the on-going things around us that makes situation seem so comforting and safe at the same time. I've got my comfort zone back once again. Safe and sound.

Cloudy skies especially brings so much comfort. It's like a soft, puffy blanket protecting over your little body in this big big world. It's even nicer when you get to go outside and feel the cold air breezing through. Feel it in your face.
Ahhh, the contentment.

The clouds have never failed to make me realize how much I enjoy just being in this world at that moment. Being the little human that I am. Just being able to look up into the skies and look at the art of God, it really brings me the comfort I cannot describe. Not to mention the joy too.

Everytime I go for a jog, it's pretty much of what I must do. To stroll and look up to the sky and enjoy. [Another good excuse to not jog and laze by just taking a long stroll.]
Yet, everytime it's like magic. Everytime I'd see something different. A different formation. A different colour. All of it seemed so magical all at once.
And I'm always overjoyed. Like some kid who never saw a cloud in her whole lifetime. *blushes*
Sometimes I just wish I have a really good camera in hand, with which I can capture every details of the sky. But... An SLR camera is still too expensive to be possessed. *sigh*

Not to fear though, the sky will always be there above us. Just protecting us little humans. [Unless of course if we don't stop pollution and continue killing the ozone layers.]
So it is okay not to have an SLR at the moment. For as long as my eyes still see, I will not stop looking up to enjoy God's cozy creations and let the clouds bring my troubles away from my little head. =)

Malacca Dinner Rush.

The decision were made pretty last minute. And the reason behind the rush to Malacca, let's leave it undisclosed. =) I'm just happy to see someone nice and so sweet to be able to receive something meaningful.
And us? Well, we get something good also anyway. In the form of food. =____= [Kinda expectable. Oh well. Haha.]

Upon reaching Malacca, we had a pit-stop at MMU and then it's off for our food-hunt.
First stop. Pick up a friend from Tesco. Haha. And you thought it's food. =p

Alright, here we go. We went to Jonker Street hoping to find some nice chendol, but the whole street is not opened. Not one pathetic chendol shop. *sobz*
So, next destination, to the famous fried oyster in Taman Mawar.


I like this because it has lesser starch and more egg, just the opposite of many fried oysters in Penang. Sadly though, you don't see much of the oysters around. Even if you find one, it may well be just a "see-ham" (coc). Haha. Questions arise, is this fried egg or fried osyters? Hmm~~
Along with it, we had "wan ton mee". It's may look real plain, but just the nice parts of it. Yummy.


Next up, we hit some alley famous for its cockles and some other snail-like, shell-like mollusks. Oh, and famous for its, erm, dirtiness as well. LOL~~
We were pretty much told of a very very disgusting story about what happened to a friend there. But hey, like it's gonna stop us. It did stop the demon in alot of them though. *winks*


Well, we were supposed to be on a huge makan-spree, correct? So why the photos of food stop here. Reason is, well, you know, like I always to Shad, Malacca is an old town. So you see, Malaccan sleep pretty early. All lights would be out by 9pm and off to bed they go. That's why Shad is always sleepy early at night. Hehe. So then, compared to Penang, it's a quiz for you to struggle thinking where to eat next. *bluek*
Okay, no offense, it's just our little joke. Hehe.

So anyway, still craving for some chendol. We went to some place called Newton something. Haha. Sad, I can't even remember the place. The rest had chendol while I just ordered orange juice. Feedback from the chendol, not good. Lucky me for skipping that.
Then, to Kota Laksamana for some nice asam curry. Thank God I skipped that too. Too spicy for something at midnight!
And that's the end of our makan-spree.

It was nice to see Shad again, and to have that nice talks. Nonsensical ones of course. We missed you. Yea yea. Gloat on. Thanks for coming out to meet us. :)
As an attribute, this is for you. Hahaha!! Cheers, man~

Somebody please save this kid. =____________=

'小酒窝'

我还在寻找 一个依靠 和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹

*幸福开始有预兆 缘份让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝长睫毛是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着想念你的微笑
你不知道你对我多么重要
(你不知道 多么重要)
有了你生命完整的刚好

小酒窝长睫毛迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

Deal With It.

It'd been raining for almost an hour or two. Heavy rain with lightning and thunder. Brrr~
Well, it's the thunder that came so suddenly that really scares me off my feet. You know, the one that either you didn't see the lightning or the one that came right after a split second you saw the lightning. Sounded stupid of me right?

Well, in this situation I was really scared. So scared I actually curled up with my pillows all around me. All alone. So, nobody would see me and laugh. =p It's a good thing right?

At first I was hoping something would happen to me, something nice and warm. But I have to deal with it. It's not gonna happen. No matter how hard I wished for it, it wasn't gonna happen.

Now that the rain is gone, everything became clear to me. I have to stop living a life filled with hopes and wishes. Deal with it that life isn't a fairytale. I'm not a Disney princess. There ain't not gonna be a prince to come and save me.
No matter how much it is gonna hurt or hurting right now, deal with it.

Sounds pathetic? Nah, I don't think so.

Thanks, Mr Cloud. For clearing my view. :)

Was It The Right Or The Wrong One?

Saying goodbye to my Sister, she saw me off at the Starline LRT station at Plaza Rakyat. And so my journey home began, alone.

Upon reaching the station, the very moment I got there, a train came by. I thought I was really lucky. Absentmindedly, I gladly boarded the train without any more thoughts. Only after a few stations later, that was when I realize I could have boarded the wrong train. This train could be the one not taking me to my destination but just right the opposite way. I did some stupid things and I was too mum to ask anyone.

I jumped right out of the train when it reaches the Chan Sow Lin station, the station where you are supposed to switch trains of different lines [The Ampang Line or the Sri Petaling Line]. Initially I was supposed to check if the train that I'm boarding is the right one when I get down at the station. If it is the right one, I'll quickly get back on board and if it isn't, I shall wait for the right one to come.
That was the plan.

However, seeing the train running on the wrong track [at least that was what I thought], I just quickly and calmly got down and stood facing the opposite track, waiting. I never bothered to check the LCD plane.

I just stood there waiting, and see trains after trains just going by but not on the direction I was waiting to see. Yet, I still never bothered to check the LCD plane.
I just told myself that probably at almost 5pm, it is the peak hour when everyone is getting off from work. So that's why the Ampang Line trains are passing by more frequently right now, the same thing would happen to the Sri Petaling ones later on. Just wait.
So, I stood there just waiting, with my mind so absent thinking about some things I should not be thinking.

A girl came by suddenly and asked me where is she supposed to expect the Sri Petaling Line train coming. I gladly told her to wait at the wrong track with me.
It was only a few seconds later then that it struck me that I forgot to check, and I looked at the plane.

It took me after missing four trains to finally realize that I had all along been waiting at the wrong track. FOUR trains, for hell's sake. And because of me missing that four trains, I missed the ERL train and had to wait for the next one to come after 20 minutes.

Brings me back to the question, was the very first train I boarded the right or the wrong one?
Now, I'll never know. All I know is that I've wasted 20 minutes of my life. All of it happened just because I rushed into boarding the very first train that come along, without any considerations in mind. Then I made another mistake accepting what I think to be true, without any effort to prove it.
How wrong more can I go?

Is this how it's supposed to be? Is that why I'm in such a situation that I am right now?

Broken.

It's all broken with just one last line.

"It doesn't really matter."

I know I should be sticking to my very own step I took, that I should not be contradicting it. But I was hoping you'd stay, no matter what, comforting me and reassuring me and giving me back what I've lost.
But this is how you're treating me, with those last words. Words that sting me straight in the heart. Words that tell me there's no turning back, no more hope.

I just wanna know, do u really mean it? Straight from the heart?
From the bottom of your heart?

I still could not tell if it's the right decision made, although I do know it has to be done. I tried so hard to act maturely in making the decision.
It's really what's best for us. I know it is. Please tell me it is.

So why can't I be so-called matured right now? Why does it have to hurt so bad? Why do I regret?
I want to trust it so dearly that it's not over, that there are still hope.
But why can't I see them? Why is it so dark ahead?

Where had my guardian angel gone to?

It Ain't Easy.

Having so used to some situation, one would find that even the slightest change of the wind will cause the whole ocean to be in chaos. Questions arise and brains would go haywire, filled with unnecessary "ifs" and unnecessary "whys" and many many unnecessary thoughts.

I was once in the ocean when the wind took me off. Away to a place I thought where my dreams lie, and now I found it was all a lie. I was misled by what it seemed to me from afar. Though fearful, I did feel warmth that I began to make myself home there, when suddenly the wind came and destroy my little hopes and dreams.

Mr Cloud once offered to bring me back to the dock, back to safety. But I am afraid. I am afraid to lose what I have tried building. I didn't want to leave. Somehow some parts in me remain hopeful, and faithful. Or probably I've just gotten used to this new situation that I do not want to be out in the ocean again. Whatever it may be, I want a second chance in this island of hope. I thought things would heal, for me.

Am I too naive? Or am I too stubborn?
Why can't I comprehend that sometimes changes are meant for betterment?
Why can't I just believe that God knows what is planned ahead for me?
Why can't I just set my sail to the direction of the wind? Wasn't my motto was once "If you can't change the direction of the wind, set your sail to it"?

I'm lost in my very own island of hope. I never thought that even in what I thought to be my comfort zone, the wind could still cause so much disaster to me.
Please show me the right way. Guide me through the hurricane. Prove to me things aren't always what I thought it seemed to be.

Pancake For Breakfast.

I was cowardly enough to endure all the anxiety. Only when I don't remember it, I don't think about it.
Yesterday, upon making up my mind, I finally wasted no time that the moment I can get my hands on to the net, I logged in and terus checked it.

Hmmm... Probably I should be on cloud nine now. But as happy as I am right now, I do not take much pride in it. Noted, not too much larh~
Of course I'm still happy and proud!! D'oh!!! What are you thinking?! Hahaha!

After so long and so many times of dreaming, finally it became true. Finally I get this penyek results. I love the joy of looking at the numbers.
I know I've been hoping and wishing for this since the very first semester in Alpha year, but not once had it come true for me. Ah, I'm just glad it finally come along. Though it was just for this short semester, I'm still glad I didn't fail myself this time.

For this short semester, all I wanted was this ending. Having only two subjects in hand, and one of it being an extra-curricular activity, it's very little stress to handle in hand. Hence, I put myself up and set a target I never get to achieve once again back on board. I told myself I would be the greatest disappointment for my own if I can't do it this time again.
Thank God I did it!! Else, how would I ever be able to face myself ever again? *pfffft*

Oh, I love love love this!! What a motivation for the next semester~! Though this trimester I'll be taking 6 subjects, I'm very much motivated. I know I can do it! All I have to do is just believe and work hard!
Go, Elaine!! *winks*

'Shattered'

In a way, I need a change
From this burnout scene
Another time, another town
Another everything
But it's always back to you

Stumble out, in the night
From the pouring rain
Made the block, sat and thought
There's more I need
But it's always back to you

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you
Yeah, yeah, yeah

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around

I had no idea that the night
Would take so damn long
Took it out, on the street
While the rain still falls
Push me back to you

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you
Yeah, yeah, yeah

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around

Give it up, give it up, baby
Give it up, give it up, now
Now

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
All that I feel is the realness I'm faking
Taking my time but it's time that I'm wasting
Always turn the car around

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around

Don't wanna turn that car around
I gotta turn this thing around

Chocolate Makes Me Happy.

As cliche as it may sounded to be, life is like a box of chocolate. Every time you reach inside, you'll not be guaranteed a piece that you love, a piece that you want. For me, I wish that everyday God will give me a piece of dairy milk chocolate. Something so plain yet so satisfying, something that would make my day. Then, everyday of my life would be perfect. Happy and smooth-going.
But I cannot blame Him when I get dark chocolate some days. Or even when I get the alcohol-based chocolate. There are people out there who loves dairy milk chocolate too. =)

No matter what chocolate I get, it's still chocolate. Is it even true that when I get my favorite one, my life is perfect? Is it true that when I get the one I tried my best to avoid, my life is totally ruined?
This is life. Nothing is ever perfect. Nothing is ever totally imperfect either.

I'm just glad that my everyday gives me no reason to not anticipate for the next days to come. I'm just glad that no matter what chocolate I get, it always melt away. The taste would linger, no doubt. But pop another one in, you'd probably begin to learn how to savour it.
It's okay not to love it. Just don't hate it. Don't let it conquer your taste buds for the days to come.

Chocolate still makes me happy. =)


p/s: It's an assorted box of chocolate I'm talking about. *winks* Cheers~!