When You're Up Alone...

...in the middle of the night. What do you really think of?

I can't contain it in anymore and started feeling all emotic all over again. I thought what I needed was to stop myself from pretending to be how I am the past few days, but I'm not as teary as before already. I guess it's a good thing, but it still hurts like hell. Yes, I felt pretty much relieved to have let it go for a few days though I couldn't lie that nothing bothered me throughout. Sometimes I wish you don't matter to me.

My mind's messed up and I couldn't focus. I couldn't make any rational decisions nor do I wanna make them. Yes, I'm as lost as a child right at the moment. Yet, you're not helping. Instead you gladly leave me alone in the dark. Maybe your mind's made up. Could you kindly enlighten me?

Happy Chinese Tigger-rific New Year!

Finally, it is THE day. Finally, I had a pretty good night sleep too! ^^♥

May all you people out there have a good year ahead with good health, prosperity, and wealth too (if that's not too much to ask). Most importantly, may all get to realize what's good for selves and strive to achieve whatever in life that is good for selves. ♥

The tiger is here. Time for the tigress [me, haha] to get a good time! Woo-hoo! Yeap, gotta blend in the mood. Gotta forget something, at least for you. Blessed be! ♥

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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

RAWRRRRRR!!!

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Giving It All Away.

Cmei said the song is meaningful and the music video is superbly touchy. I had it all in mind. But only today I went searching for it, right after not remembering the title for weeks. But I never thought this effect was gonna occur.

Yes, it's very touchy. But I'm touched in a very different way I couldn't explain. Knowing how the song goes lyrically only helped making me feeling worse. Sigh. What was I thinking?

Tell me what you feel. Sigh.

Home, A Getaway?

Hadn't had any sleep last night, which makes me super tired right now. Yeap, I've landed and am safely home. As at this moment, I am getting real comfortable on my bed. My eyelids are getting really heavy, but I just can't sleep. Well, one reason is that I have to help my Dad around the house. Not much time left for spring cleaning.

Yet, I wish I could just doze off a little while now. Just catch some power nap, or so. Whatever. I need not be so zombie-ish like now. Works will probably start as soon as Dad comes home from car wash. Gosh!

It was nothing unusual that I always am not able to sleep well a day before traveling. But this is by far the worst. Not even an hour sleep the whole night through?! You gotta be kidding me.

No thanks to you. Yes, you. I'm blaming it all on you. Say what you want, but I'm bitching. Each time I close my eyes, I'm getting a little more pissed off than the last. I couldn't believe you did what you did. I can't be alright. It was a whole crappy night. Heck. Stupid stupid stupid. How foolish of me. I question your priority.

And no, I don't wanna talk about it. At least not now. I'm probably sorry you have to read it here, but I doubt you'd know what it was all about anyway. Sigh.

Could being home right now meant the perfect getaway for me? This was supposedly a really happy moment for me. But...it got ruined once again. I'm so sick of you.